Anti-depressants
Ah, what the fuck. I seriously need to vent. No I'm not scolding anyone. I'm just feeling over stressed and fustrated. Seriously, everything just sucks. I bet if I see any psychiatrist now, they'd probably diagnose me with depression. Everything's going wrong. My computer can just go and die now. Go go go go go go fucking go die. Please. I'm such a lousy owner, go find some better owner. I don't know where to find the recovery system to recover my files so I can cleanup this stupid darn shitty thing. Don't help me ok! Don't help me. Just leave me alone. Let all my files disappear with this computer. Let my collection of don't know how many thousand songs, all my blogskins code, images, photoshop everything just disappear.

Just disappear will y'all! Get the hell fuck out of my life! I'm probably destined to walk this road alone. This fucking sucks. I'm in no mood to watch any of my shows anymore.


I'm starting to lose my cool and senses. I can't take all this shit anymore. Carry on putting all the burden on me. I'll probably end up in the mental hospital.


Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love






I've never cried this badly for a guy before.