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너무 너무 멋져 눈이 눈이 부셔
My first love story My angel and my girls My sunshine Oh, oh let’s go!
[서현] [티파니] [윤아] (어떡하죠) [수영]어떡하죠 [모두] [유리] [써니] (어쩌면 좋아) [효연] 어쩌면 좋아요 너무 반짝반짝 눈이 부셔 no no no no [서현] 말도 못했는 걸 너무 부끄러워 하는 나 [모두] [모두] DH MUN yesterday was pretty good I guess. Unglam moments, of climbing up and down, and plonking hard on the chair. Hahaha, was super late for tuition though (Like one hour -_-!!) Into Deathly Hallows now~ Justin is full of cock, saying Harry Potter died when I already know that he married and has got kids -_- Justin: Eh I've finished HBP already! His reaction was super hilarious or something. And looking at this SNSD singer, is like super scary. At certain angles, I look at little like her. I don't know who she is, didn't even realised until Bryan told me.  The one on the left. (Just at that instance, other than that, I totally don't look like her)  Second from the left (I think I've got some candid shot of me doing the same action before) Addicted to Gee. LOLOL. 너무 깜짝깜짝 놀라 나는 Oh oh oh oh oh 너무 자릿자릿 몸이 떨려 Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee 젖은 눈빛 (Oh yeah) 고운 향기 (Oh yeah yeah yeah) Attempted Chinese worksheet, realised that my Chinese CMI (And that worksheet is bloody difficult too). 'Cause in your eyes, I'd like to stay.
Sometimes I wish I'm not so oversensitive and think that everything that's mentioned is directed at me. Oh, maybe it is.Y'know, I don't even know why I even bother to be nice when things have already gone the way they've become. I've already said, I don't like the way things have to end. Sad, it has to end this way. Perhaps I should laugh at my stupidity. Laugh at myself for being so trusting, or should I say gullible? I just trust people so easily, isn't it so? And at the end of the day, it's just me, getting hurt all over again. When I knew the truth, I didn't get upset. And well, I just laughed it off. Maybe, all this while, I just knew that all this shit was happening. I'm glad I don't exactly go around having real good bitching sessions with people. And I hate it when I hear about others talking thrash about my friends. You think it's funny? I really start to wonder, if my hypothesis was right. Like if people hated me just because I look one hell like a BTS (Go figure). 'Surprisingly, I wasn't surprised.' Pray that I'll fall ill tonight. No matter what I'll always wait for you.
Seriously. It's disgusting when people do things like that, but I'm so not surprised it's you. I don't wanna lemon you anymore, just amazing how people don't bother to reflect on their own actions (and happily go around accusing people when they do likewise) That's so smart of them, I guess? I love my email which was sent to Bitches and Richard.FYI, people could go and research more and not be so outdated on certain issues, and I think my point has been stated in the email. Your actions and your words, so do not make sense. So much for not hiding behind the screen. Haven't been using this in the longest time, (because it sounds so Ahlian-ish): Humji Anyway, dinner was super filling, and I really love family gatherings (But more of the at relatives' house). Sure gonna pee a lot tonight, drinking lots of tea induces peeing reactions or something.      Love talking to Hanying a lot :D I seriously need to go out and sing rock songs. I can't survive without you here by my side.
Did you just call me a bitch? The bitch is a dog, dogs bark, bark is on trees, trees are a part of nature, nature is beautiful, so thanks. Actually managed to get through the day after morning trauma. Wow whee. And PC's interesting as usual, we're all so open about lemon-ing now. Hohoho. Amazing isn't it? I was thinking if the number of people who actually bother to read this online diary is actually pretty low, would I continue? The type of posts that I do nowadays are not exactly about every single minute detail about whatever happen (Duh), more of thoughts. It's funny how blogshops are sprouting at an alarming rate, and people are selling the exact same stuff, and then these kind of things start to lose novelty. It's funnier that people actually use blogshops to express themselves (and their opinions on blogshops). It's quite hilarious isn't it? As if people really do care how you view about blogshops (Especially if it's not theirs). I've been seeing things in a pretty amusing light apparently, so yea, cheers up the whole stressful atmosphere I guess? Like how sometimes people can't exactly differentiate right from left and don't actually realise it. Plus I enjoy being a nerd and correcting really horrendous spelling errors, like the mistakes that people with such high intelligence make. Maybe intelligence doesn't really determine your command of a certain language (Of course, definitely, absolutely). Is hanyupinyin a language too? It seems that I really can't understand why people can make such simple mistakes. It really isn't your fault if you're one of those older generations that don't actually have much contact with hanyupinyin. And if you use say 'nu' instead of 'nv' (v supposed to represent u with the double dots above), it's fine because well, it's still a 'u'. But making really simple mistakes? (I really question what the years of education have helped in nurturing/teaching someone) I thought that once people have learnt certain stuff (E.g. Hiragana), it's usually in your head for life. One would be able to read out, well, maybe not correct but at least he/she is able to recognise. Oh maybe, it's just me that feel it's all the same. Sometimes people don't have the ability to grasp certain things in life for long periods of time. It's also entertaining that people lack the ability to link things/subjects/issues together. Like they say something and suddenly jump to another point. And it's like WOW. Example: Real funny, I guess. I've realised my mistake. I shouldn't have said that people actually still do look horrendous after tweaking their pictures. Well because if that's called horrendous then I don't know what the before picture is. Nonono, actually sometimes, the before might be better (in some cases). Well, not all functions of the editing tools can be grasped immediately, and some people are just really good at it, some people just don't have the flair. It's the same as makeup. In most cases, people do end up looking better after slapping like 10 inches of makeup on their faces after like 5 hours. There was like some middle-aged looking woman, who put on lots of makeup, and looked totally different and attractive after that. But then I can't imagine what their future husbands will suffer from, when they see their wives' before-makeup faces every morning. Will they die the next day immediately after the marriage, like y'know, he wakes up and gets a really huge shock, thinking,"Omg, who's this woman beside me?" Of course, there is the minority that looks better au naturale (Be it good or not, I just said better) I'd totally wish to be one of those that looks perfectly normal without makeup because putting on makeup is so tedious, removing it is even worse. I just enjoy looking at all the colourful palettes, not using them on myself. I wonder if people don't really have the capability/flair to do certain stuff, will they keep on trying? Maybe they should learn from Fei Tian. She may suck at Fashion Designing (Even though she wants to be a fashion designer) but she realises that she is good at sewing and is able to showcase her talent in that area. And it's even better when she moves on to become a wedding planner. Oh, I was thinking, my morning trauma illness might have been over. Felt like puking during recess. I must have been really strong to hold back the horrendous feeling. You make me feel beautiful when I have nothing left to prove.
Last minute studying with Sweeyan today. LOL, poor dude, look at what 'O' Levels have done to him.Super super cute boy boy at training today! He was like looking at the Singapore Team gymnasts doing their stuns and Coach kept calling for him but he didn't notice at all, then he realised and walked over in a super cute, bashful way :D I'm really amused. Yea, things in general. Amused by the way humans react to thing, amused by what humans say, what they do. We never do make sense do we? Like how we (Well, as in not everyone but yea) say that we hate backstabbers, bitches or liars when we obviously are one (or more) of the above? We can bitch about others and feel smug about it and yet others can't do that to us and we feel that they're one hell of rude retards. We deny whatever we think is towards our disadvantage and try to make ourselves sound better. We say that people who hide behind their screens to scold people are cowards/wimps when we ourselves do likewise, and we actually try to find ways to justify such actions. We are contradictive creatures that makes no sense whatsoever. We speak vulgarities because we think it's cool. Like oh, mentioning 'f*** off' on my blog endlessly means the same as I'm the coolest in thing in a (community) now. We honk at people because they're cutting into our lanes when we ourselves did likewise before but it's because it was just a minor mistake and you had to cut into some other people's lane suddenly. We don't bother to think from another perspective, see things from another angle, hear things from other sources. We just deem that whatever we see/hear/feel/think is the right one. I'm glad I do consider more options now. I'm thinking more, maybe that's why I'm all the more inseparable from music. I'm really sad that Sirius had to die. Now, I'm gonna start on Half-Blood Prince. Totally pwning Justin. I started Philosopher's Stone like 3 weeks ago and Justin was on Goblet of Fire last year, and I think he just finished Order of Phoenix of something. Go ahead and bitch. I dare you. You can do so because I can't see it now but it's all gonna be pointless. I wonder if you do actually get a kick out of it. Being with you it's all just an act, it's overrated.
Fingers are freezing like mad now!! How come my blubber ain't protecting me from Bro's powerful aircon! (But I'm happily typing on his MacBook, which makes my blog looks chio btw! In a way, Apple do rocks, except for the whole iTunes thing)I'm feeling accomplished to have studied Atomic Structure and Bonding, and did quite a pretty mindmap! So on my way to working on Speed of Reaction. Studying is seriously crazy. I end up singing instead. Oh, and reminiscing about good old Primary school days with Mengran and Jiaxun was funfun. And yea, Zhenghui's damn funny (Acting out RX's unglam sleep) and now we've got a common action :D Finishing Order of Phoenix! It's stealing all my precious mugging time away. Actually, does the word 'mugging' come from Muggles? I really wonder. Loads of questions on my mind now. Should I do this? Should I do that? Everything never fails to revolve around you. Ack! Unwise??? Yes!! But I'm happy! And I know it (Now JJ's gonna throw me some disgusted look and says that he wanna slap/kill me) Your thoughts are hard to penetrate but some day, maybe I'll be able to get into your mind. Hopefully. Changing for a guy, Overrated. Living in a lie, It's overrated. Always asking why? So overrated. BEN ROMANS IS AWESOME!!! YAYNESS (And I stole Kevin Cheng and Raymond Lam from Deborah before she could! Hiakhiak) Haha, and why did Siyin come and tell me that her legs are itchyitchy!!!
I wish I could say to you, I'm not going nowhere.
Day out with both bestfriends. (Or rather, best friend and good friend)Where Got Ghost wasn't as good/funny as I expected. But nevertheless, still pretty funny, Jack Neo style :) And Haunted House at Huiying's carnival was good :)! Except for my stupid comments. Like we were walking and I started commenting and talking way too much. Example: We walked past a bowl with some kind of animal organ and I just glanced and walked away. And there was this cupboard, and I was pointing to it and saying,"It's going to open right?" And then I walked and the person was like,"RAWR!" and I was like,"Oh, I'm so scared!" Hahaha pretty funny. Like it was really good because it was real and stuff. There was a part whereby we had to 'crawl' and I said,"Huh? Must crawl ah? So unglam ._." P.S. Could somebody go to YEP with me, provided whatever I asked for come true? P.P.S. I'm missing you guys already :) How d'you love someone, without getting hurt?
HEY SINYEE LOVE, MISS YOU LOADS :DJansey has uploaded loads of unglam shots onto Class Blog. Crazy much, Deborah, looks unglam as usual. Thank god I was blocked in those shots taken in the parade square. (Deborah and I deleted a few unglam shots from his camera :D)  At Food Republic, where horrendous food are overpriced  I just realised that the Caucasian is smiling into the camera as well -_-  Totally giving Janson the death glare    Horny twerps    Sexy Yokeming  Cute Charlene (Note: The shirt is long ._.)   COOL TERESA. HAHAHAHA :D!  My sexy hot wifey :D Jealouszxzx?  I thought this would make a good wallpaper. (Leon looks like a girl, again)   Look at Janson in the background!     Really had lots of fun, and I seriously could've stayed on. Who said pushing to end early ah? -Gives Janson the evil look. Am looking forward to chalet! I swear looking at Year 1 photos sure bring back lots of memories. We all used to look like gaytards and yea, I happily pointed out,"LOOK! MY BEST FRIEND IS JUST BESIDE ME!" Those days were fun, it's amazing how time passes so quickly, and we're like so old now (And of course, we all look much better) Shikai, Harry Potter, 138, hmmmm? :) Yups, of course, register number 20 eh??? We should greet Mr Yeo that way, next time. I swear it was really good :)! And yea, pictures from eons ago (Well, let's say a month?)  (Clockwise) Me, Huishi, Yen Tinge (Yups, Chang Hsien's sister), Adeline, Suan Wood  With Suan East and Sean Found this in my Photobucket album, sure brings back the memories of old blogskinning days. Ah wells, no more Photoshop but soon soon. Once I get a new computer, I'm so gonna get Photoshop, and we'll see. No more blogskins though.  With horrendous spelling errors. P.S. I'm a hugeass lemon, but seriously whatever. I hope you'll get your comeuppance one day. By the way, d'you ever proof read whatever you've wrote? Are you blind or blind? Look at my smiley face with a double-chin :))! You're the direction I follow to get home.
Gargantuan ice-creams and Ice Wine. A pity I don't really appreciate crabs.Using handphone to send out messages to both FB and Twitter is indeed fun huh. Like sending a message immediately when 'What Do You See?' is being played on TV. How efficient :D Watching Mum doing programming is so tiring. Wonder how she stands it. I understand the whole self-fulfilling part, it's like working on a blogskin for goddamn long and finally it's done, and you're happy with it (And it doesn't look like bullshit of some sort, or some kid trying to be artsy farty). This National Day, how spectacular. Great to feel that I'm maturing, becoming someone who's more understanding. So unlike me from the past. Still, I'm questioning myself, why ain't I angry? Why ain't I doing anything to fight back? Or maybe it's because, all along, a little voice in my head is telling me that it has been happening all the while or maybe, it's just a waste of time to fight back. I know what I can do now, is just to laugh at someone else's comments and be neutral. Or maybe, by not saying anything at all, it ain't really neutral after all. Haha, nobody gets it. But I do. And that's all I need :) P.S. On my quest to increase body mass. You get it. HAHAHAHA. Will you be mine tonight?
National Day celebration, hmmmm, I don't know. I miss those Primary school days, whereby we always sang Where I Belong. Did I mention how much I really don't like this year's song, and I really hate Electrico? I thought Everybody's Here was bad enough, but apparently 'Le Kua Si Mi' was worse.Did chinese interview with JJ, and zomg, I probably sounded like some Caucasian trying to speak Chinese and JJ kept talking cock so I think I probably screwed up their video. Stupid JJ. I'm super tired after class outing, like, trying to find a decent tank top and buy refills in 20 minutes. No easy feat but we kinda managed it! :D And wifey looks good in almost everything :D Hehehehe. Everyone had their fair share of laughter, enjoyed frolicking in the sea, playing Charades by the sea. And finally, they got to see my fierce and loud side, the side which I show to EDS Juniors, the side which EDS juniors find scary and fierce. HAHAHAHA. They always go like,"Wahhh, you're damn scary." Thanks to my booming thundering voice. Mwahahas. The t-shirt game was kinda fun, like we were in a 'cat-fight' and kinda unglam, but nevertheless, we're strong people! :D Love chilling at Coffee Bean as usual. I can't seem to change my drink, I was contemplating on trying Ice-Blended Black Forest, but in the end I was like ordering the usual. Ice-Blended Mocha Regular with whipped cream. Will never go wrong if anyone ordered that for me.      We're a bunch of evil kids, and then again, isn't this human nature? Sure brings back lots of memories. About how we talked about which undergarments were cuter, how we went into random shops, just to look at clothes together, how we walked around the whole place because we didn't know what to do, how I told you I need not look at hot guys in newurbanmale because there was one beside me already. Though knowing you are like that, I'm still as hopeless and pathetic as before. I'm falling back into this whole vicious cycle again. I can't be cold towards you anymore. Everytime I see you just makes me come back for more. These few nights have been bad. I just wished that I need not wake up from my dreams, I bet I was smiling in them, and I just felt real happiness and when I woke up, I couldn't help but feel low and start wondering why things couldn't be the way I wanted. Love is so much more than just emotion. And you just don't know it. Maybe you'll never know what's it like to truly like someone. Ken's getting married tomorrow! Really am happy for him. Just wished that I could be there seeing him walk down the aisle. Awesome guy! :D P.S. Haha, somebody finally replied to it. By the way, FB says I'm a sweet bitch. Omg, I'm damn awake now :D Go Serena, your turn! :D Your love was nothing but a game.
You told me there's no need To talk it out 'cause it's too late To proceed and slowly I took your words and walked away No looking back, I won't regret, no I will find my way I'm broken But still I have to say It's alright, it's OK I'm so much better without you I won't be sorry Alright, OK So don't you bother what I do No matter what you say I won't return Our bridge has burned down I'm stronger now It's alright, it's OK I'm so much better without you I won't be sorry You played me, betrayed me Your love was nothing but a game Portrait a role, you took control, I I couldn't help but fall So deep But now I see things clear It's alright, it's OK I'm so much better without you I won't be sorry Alright, OK So don't you bother what I do No matter what you say I won't return Our bridge has burned down I'm stronger now It's alright, it's OK I'm so much better without you I won't be sorry Don't waste your fiction tears on me Just save them for someone in need It's way too late I'm closing the door It's alright, OK I'm so much better without you I won't be sorry It's alright, OK So don't you bother what I do No matter what you say I won't return Our bridge has burned down I'm stronger now It's alright, it's OK I'm so much better without you I won't be sorry It's alright, it's OK Alright, OK Without you No matter what you say It's alright, it's OK Alright, OK Without you I won't be sorry Bryan's freaking me out with big news, and I don't wanna believe it!!! What, how d'you expect me to believe it when I've been 'idolising' him for like more than 3 years! Geog Field Trip was kinda fun, like haven't been frolicking in water for eons! And we can do so again this Friday! I so need a suntan. And become glowing like a red lobster! :D Hehehe. I'm falling endlessly again but this time I can control myself more. But still, you've got me on my knees. And I hate to say this, but I'm so addicted to you, and You're exactly my brand of heroin. I won't forget, I won't forget about us.
Woke up this morning and remembered that Daddy was going back to work after what seems like so long, and I got pretty much overwhelmed with emotions. So much has happened in the past 1 and a half years, and I don't think many people actually knew what exactly happened, well, at least I think only a handful knew and I'm glad that from all these while, from the start, Huiying was beside me and I'm glad that we became closer than ever. Closer than we were in Sec 1 and 2.I still remember that day, it was one of the rare days that Huiying was back in school and I was excitedly running down to the Foyer to meet her and got so excited. Still remembered we intended to go to Orchard to shop, along with Monica and Sijin (If I'm not wrong). We were like happily having our lunch and chatting and then, I received an sms from bro. Instantly, I was crestfallen, and I just broke down in the middle of the frigging canteen, and Huiying started talking to me. She started telling me about what happened to her too, she told me to be strong, and be brave, and always to be happy because I should be a pillar, a source of joy and infect others with it. My mind was in a whirl, full of confusion, I didn't know what to do. I just hugged her and cried. She was there for me, to lend me her shoulder to cry on. And in the end, I didn't go to shop with them, I went straight home, hide behind my pokerface. But as soon as I turned the shower on, I just cried endlessly. Huiying would just keep talking to me, to make me feel better, up till now, I'm still very touched by her actions, I'm glad to have her as my best friend, glad that she was there, to put up with my silly nonsense for so long, glad to listen to my endless ramblings. I'm happy and fortunate too, that I could listen to her talk about certain things. Because of Huiying, I got to try things I never did before. I did things that were unusual, well at least not typical me. I tried the drums, I've never been so open about my feelings before. I remember all the time we spent together, going for The Click Five's Modern Minds And Great Times World Tour, always walking from Dhoby Gaut to Far East plaza, watching Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snoggings, sitting in the library with you and talk cock, going to your house and look at you play your guitar while I sing along. The things we could do are endless, and I'm lucky to have you as my best friend. It's kinda amazing how we can sustain our friendship even though we're no longer in the same school anymore. I know I get really really annoyed (More than others), when my parents think that I spend far too much time with you, but every hour, every minute, every second, spent with you is worth it. I learn new things each time, I'm always happy and crazy when I'm with you. They don't really understand why we HAVE to meet up, but I do know why. The significance of your actions, and how you stood by me, when I was facing the 'crisis', is unforgettable. And you've always said,"It's better to love than to not love at all." I'm glad I was true about my feelings, althought it's going to be a year, I think I will pull through this. What does one year mean, when I actually made up my mind, to wait for 3, 4 years? What does three heartbreaks mean, when the tears I've cried are countless? And I'll love you always, my best friend. .jpg) With Wenny. .jpg) At Click Five concert P.S. Am super looking forward to Friday. Sorry, am I not supposed to be high about class outing at Sentosa :(? But I somehow arrived to that conclusion all by myself.
Have to stop babyfreezing for now. Spotted a bruise near my butt. Not a very nice feeling.Into Prisoner of Azkaban. DAMN IT. It's damn hard to read because I'm not supposed to know of Horcruxes and what nots yet, and I'm confusing myself. Bloody hellzx. Mr Pang Qing Yuan is going from 20 August 2009 to Jan 2010 to Korea Hahaha, super cute. Am looking forward to National Day and gathering before that. No more Chemistry tuition :/? P.S. Ron Weasley is seriously cute. Taha :D |
