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Hello, I'm Huien. Member of It's F, Bitch, with the title of Lucky Cute Bitch. |
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I woke you up before you had the chance to dream.
Have you ever had something, that you want to do so much? You just want to dedicate your whole life to it and just keep doing it forever until the day you decide to retire from it?(And no, I'm not trying to quote anything about Mr Sng giving a speech on Lim Bo Lan's retirement) My practical really sucks. Piano. Grade 8. Hello, I've failed Grade 8 once, am doing for 2 years already. My pieces still suck. I've never played my songs fluently without one single mistake before! That's like totally impossible. My pieces are not expressive enough. I don't get any motivation to practise every single day, or maybe even one day, for 3 hours like Zixuan. I practise like once a week, that's if my teacher's coming, if not I'd just slack. And even if I practised, it's like less than 1 hour. I seriously don't want to fail Grade 8 again, don't want to waste 300+ bucks, don't want to disappoint my teacher and parents. And I don't want to let my dream die. My teacher was telling me, that I must not only let the examiner think that I deserve only a pass, but I deserve more than a pass, I should get a distinction. I've got to practise everyday, even if it's only half an hour. It's seriously, better than not doing anything, right? And y'know, I haven't been touching the piano for a super long time, so I played super badly today. And she said, something, that really spurred me,"If you haven't been practising for a long time, and yet, you could give me such a standard, then if you practised everyday, you can imagine how great your pieces can be!" At the instance, I felt like crying so badly. Tears was like welling in my eyes. Not because my mum was being super sarcastic and telling my teacher that I'm so lazy and haven't been practising regularly. But somehow, I think of what Huiying has been saying. She plays the drums, she stops, and feels, that this is what she want to do all her life. I was thinking about what she said, again and again. I could no longer listen to what my teacher was saying. And then I just felt like crying again. Because after reading Huiying's post yesterday, I seriously felt like crying. And for a moment, I thought,"Actually, I really want to do music for my entire life." I've always felt that my passion for music, is seriously uncomparable to Huiying's. Her love and passion seriously touched me. As I'm posting now, I'm like crying for no rhyme or reason I think my teacher could sense that I wanted to cry. When I was in Primary school, if this same thing happened, I would cry, because I was afraid and scared. But no, this time round, I cried, not because I was weak, afraid nor scared but rather, I've found something that I really wanted to do. Something that I really want to put my heart and soul into it. I was thinking, if I really love Ben Romans so much, I should be doing something that I can be proud of. Piano are just like keyboards, if Ben Romans and Jay Chou can do it, I can do it too! Then I can be really worthy fan of Ben right? I really want to be like Ben, so cool, with the keyboards and everything. I want this dream to come true. I've always wanted an artistic career. It's always been a choice between fashion designing and music. And as I've been dabbling in music, I know music is what I want. If I try out fashion designing, maybe I'll know whether it is or isn't suitable for me. I want to do something that I really love and have the motivation for in life. Where words fail, music speaks :) -Quote Huiying. Y'know, you're a really great motivation to me. You really do have the ability to cause impact in people's life :D   Don't give up just yet |
