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Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye.
I feel super confused somehow. I've got big dreams, but I'm not doing anything about everything. Argh, what if the world really ended 4 years later? I don't want to die at the age of 19. Though I will die young, look nice and unwrinkly, but still, there are many things that I want to do.Well, we're all not supposed to be afraid of death I guess, since we're all gonna die some day. It's just how we're gonna die, when we're gonna die and so on. Yea, I know I'm going to sound ridiculous, but I'm actually starting to believe the whole karma thing and that the world might just end in 2012, according to the Mayan Prophecy. Ok, so I asked my mum whether she thought that we would all just die 4 years later, since the world IS going through so many rapid changes. We might all just die, due to the lack of food, since the bee population IS dropping. Wait, it's no use fretting about something that'll probably happen like 3 years plus plus later. And how about the recent disasters, everywhere. Xinwei was telling me that something will happen on 8 August 2008, which is like the Open Ceremony for the Beijing Olympics. Some guy told her this, and that, some stuff represent the different places in China that disasters, or at least, unhappy events will unfold, and one of the places was like SiChuan, and there was this horrible earthquake. She even said, that according to this random guy, he said that the 2004 Greece Olympics, would be the last of all Olympics. And so I just thought, it'll probably be the last because, Something really will happen on 8 August this year, and all our sportsmen and women just die because the whole thing is going to be so horrible, so it takes like years to train someone to be of some standard, so the whole Olympics thing just get cancelled. Well, that's the only reason I can think of, which sounds pretty absurd, since there will definitely be countries that don't send ALL of their sports people, so there will still be some left. Ok, ignoring this whole Olympics thing, because it's said that disasters will happen and like all has happened except for the one, that will occur on 8 August. I seriously wonder what will happen. But I know, for sure, that I'm super superstitious recently. Ok, I wonder if superstitious is the right word. But during last night's news, there was this question thing, if you answer, you stand a chance to win the tickets. And apparently, I knew the answer to that question, even though I haven't been watching the news. Ok, I wonder how I knew the answer, about Singapore sending 6 people to the Beijing Olympics O_O I haven't been listening or watching any news recently! It's 6 right! Then Mum was like,"Faster! Send in answers!" I hastily replied,"NONONONO!!!! AFTERWARDS GO THERE THEN WE DIE HOW!?!?!" Mum,"Huh? What?" Me,"My friend said that something will happen on 8 August this year! Heard that the Greece Olympics would be the last of the Olympics!!!!" I was so worried -_- I can't imagine myself winning like those tickets and happily going there (Which is kinda impossible, since it's like school time?) then I go there to get myself killed. Ok, but all these is like just rumours, nothing's confirmed. I seriously hope, nothing will happen. -Cross my fingers. During IDMI Day 4, meeting with mentor in school, so while Mengran was doing the group powerpoint, I was talking to Xingfang and Tianming about all these stuff. Then I mentioned about what Huiying told me, like billions of years later, the sun will swallow up earth and then we all will just die. Ok, not WE, because we would have died already by that time, and billions of years later, we would have reincarnated like kazillion number of times, well, that's if you believe in reincarnation. Tianming said,"Yea, some say the stars in the universe will start to shrink, because they're dying, then they get smaller and smaller and they either explode, because all the energy in them is compressed or they just remain like some small random thing." Well, if Sun really shrinks and remain like some small thing, we will all still die anyway. Without the sun, we'll die what!! So whether the stars decide to explode or shrink, we'll all die anyway. It's just that the way we die, would be rather extreme. If Sun decides to explode, then Earth will start to melt, and we'll all just get burned to death. I wonder if the process is slow or fast. If it's slow, we'll probably like suffer a lot because we'll start to melt (?) and I can't imagine liquid humans or humans in the molten state O_o Well, if Sun decides to remain as some random pea-sized thing, the whole universe temperature would drop drastically and Earth temperature will shoot until super low, and we'll all just freeze to death. Also, we'll all probably die like a super slow death and we'll all turn into icemans and just remain as ice? Well, if I can choose, I'll choose the former. That's if the process is really quick and we just get blinded by a strong light and suddenly, we just blank out. Because we won't know whether we die. We'd be sleeping forever. We won't feel any pain anymore. And plus, I'm afraid of cold. Hot is worse I think, but I don't like the feeling of myself being numb and my finger nails turn blue really easily. I don't know why I'm discussing about which way I'd rather die. And back to the 2012 thing, if the world really ended, I think I'd be like super sad. My dreams will all be buried together with me, if I even get a proper burial. I think there are many things I want to achieve in life. I know it's not something to do with maths or science. It's something that has to be arts. I want to try out a fashion designing course, I want to learn the drums, I want to design my own house/room, I want to sing in front of an audience, I want to form a band. Ok, sounds so far-fetched. Who says you can't form a band? It's just whether you want to have an album or not. I've even thought of the name for the band. Well, that's if everyone decides that it's nice enough. I feel so aunty all of a sudden. Worrying about the future, life and death and yada yada. I shall not be afraid of death, since I don't know when I'll be the next victim. Well, I'd like to quote L (L Change The World), Determine your own fate. That's the one and only way to outwit Death. So people, do the things you love and have no regrets before you leave this world. At least, accomplish some of the things you want to. As long as you know you've done your best, and it's something that you like to do, I'm sure whether you die at the age of 20 or 80, you'll still be happy anyway. I sound so ... somehow. P.S. What I've just typed out is based on much thinking recently on the stuff that my friends told me. There are websites talking about the 2012 Mayan Prophecy, and regarding the whole Bejing Olympics thing, I'm not really sure about that. I just hope nothing will happen. Ok damn, my room stinks. I think my maid is frying something and it seriously stinks lah. Wtf, I wanna puke. The smell is like *bleargh* |
