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Ah. I'm quite 'angry'. Well, actually I'm not. But if I can add Joe (Guese) on Facebook and he accepts me the next day, then how come Joey (Zehr) and Kyle (Patrick) can't!!!!Sad right. And Kyle has changed his profile picture for like godamnit don't know how many times! -_- And then I can't like add them again since, everytime I see this 'thingy' of them, it's 'Friend Requested'. So no link to click and add them as a friends again. Zzz. So saddening! You don't understand how it feels like! But everytime I see this thingy, it says '6/7 mutual friends'. They include Ben, Ethan, Joe, Huijun, some random Philippines fans who added me on FB. Hahaha, I feel so stupid, ranting about such stuff -_- Plus during tuition, I was like raving about Ben (again -_-) and I turned to TJ and asked, Ben Romans is hot right!?!?!?! And Xinwei asked him, Jesse McCartney is cuter right!?!?!?! TJ, obviously, can't say one's hot and the other's cute, if not he'd be deem gay as well. So he replied, Ahhhh. No comments. Zz, tsk Xinwei! Ben appeared in a bigger show then your Jesse!!! Speaking of Ben, Taking Five is coming out on VCD/DVD soon! Hehehehe!  I think Eric Dill is rather charming? Well, I don't really understand why some people just get so mad when others say that Eric's voice is better than Kyle's? Personally, I like both voices. I think Eric's voice is really attractive? Probably because I'm also attracted to those voices (guys) that can reach a higher pitch? And Eric's voice can reach like rather high? But when Kyle sings his songs, he has some difficulties reaching those high notes, well, since his voice is like deep, it's rather understandable :)  Ben!!!! :D  No, he's not balding. Stop saying he's balding _|_  I think he looks super cute plus hot here! This is such a pretty shot! :D It feels weird, sometimes, being in Aspen. Since, well, after tuition, I'd walk to the bus stop to take a bus home and then I'm taking the same bus as TJ and we'll be alighting at the same stop. In class, we're sitting beside each other and then when it's school days, the next day, I'll see him again since we take the bus service. Hahahaha. Well, I'm a math freak! 8-) Yea right. Mr Tan was like,"Don't you think Trigo is fun!?" Everyone,"Uhhhhh......" Yea, actually, since when was Math fun? Especially when someone like me just suck at Math. And he was like asking how many tests have we had, and we couldn't actually remember, but I remembered how many I actually passed? For others, they'd probably on remember how many they failed. But for me, I clearly remember that I passed only 3. Amazing. I think I failed Logarithms -_- I love Ben baby. (I need some 'drug' to get the load of LA film off my mind. Ben's my drug.) And some NC16/M18/R21 content! People, who are afraid of porn like JJ shouldn't see Japanese Sex Doll I can't remember her name. Well don't you get horny, it's just silicon boobs. And the way the person touches, squeezes it, it's like the boobs don't even have the feel of real boobs. Seriously, if you touch them the way that person touches the silicon thingy, it's totally different. Where got so soft, flexible and squishy one. Let the party begin.
Woohoo. I really love my current blog song. Yea, it's like Euro 2008 Official Anthem, and yea, I didn't really know about the song until I saw the making of the music video like around more than 1 month ago, on MTV Channel.And oh, I was so amazed by those football tricks (and of course, mesmerised by Enrique. He's so hot!) Jasmine was like,"You like it because of me right!" Hahaha, she's so cute :D Yea, during the making of the MV, Enrique was supposed to do this ball stunt and then he kept trying and finally he did it, and he had to kick the ball, so he kept kicking and kicking and he ended up breaking 2 lights. The 2 lights were on this light panel thing, shown like throughout the video (At the recommendations area) It's so cool! I like the places that are chosen to film Enrique's MV, because they're always so out of the world? For this MV, they filmed in an unused bank? And Bro says that the bank was used to film Spiderman before, I'm not exactly sure about that, but it's really pretty! And for Tired Of Being Sorry, they filmed the MV in an underground bar. It's like, wow. Heh. The Making Of 'Can You Hear Me' Can You Hear Me - Enrique Iglesias Can You Hear Me! I am numb but I can still feel you Sometimes I'm blind but I see you You are here but so far away The times when you wanna.. I'm missing you Makes me feel like I'm spinning Sometimes you get what you gain I'm on a coaster-collision Am not about to give in Can't explain my position or the condition that I'm in. Where I am is no limit, no walls, no ceilings No intermission, so let Let the party begin. Hey.. Hey.. Hey all the way DJ let it play. Hey Hey Can You Hear Me? Oooow Hey.. Hey.. Hey all the way DJ let it play. Hey Hey Can You Hear Me? Oooow Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me? Oooow Don't you mean that you're my vision I gotta make a decision Do I go, do I stay? (Stay) You've gotten into my system You are in control of my mental I need to mean for a stay I'm on a coaster-collision Am not about to give in Can't explain my position or the condition that I'm in. Where I am is no limit, no walls, no ceilings No intermission, so let Let the party begin Hey.. Hey.. Hey all the way DJ let it play. Hey Hey Can You Hear Me? Oooow Hey.. Hey.. Hey all the way DJ let it play. Hey Hey Can You Hear Me? Oooow Oooow Oooow Oooow Oooow Oooow Oooow Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me? Hey.. Hey.. Hey all the way DJ let it play. Hey Hey Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me? I know the lyrics look ridiculous. Especially the 'oooow' part. LOL. Hahaha. Well, it was Teachers' Day yesterday. Sorry but I didn't quite enjoy it, since the performances were like, yea, ok. And then Years 1-3 don't really bother to dress up that much? Years 4-6s were like dressed up like mad, especially the Year 5s, who put in so much hard work, such as painting of faces, and stuff. For the sandwich making competition, we just like made the bread last minute when they told us to submit, as during the time span given, other classes were working on it and we were like heck, and doing our own stuff. So in the end it was like Lemon biscuits Bread Beehoon Bread Chocolate sandwich Bread Mamee Bread The lowest is the bottom most level. It's so scary right. Hahaha. Other classes' sandwiches looked pretty and stuff. And ours was just a slidshod job. School's boring and after that, we went to Bugis, Top One KTV, to sing! Ruixin bought a total of 2 dozens of donuts. Crazy right. 1 dozen for Zexi and 1 dozen to share with Deborah. Kill those people who backed out last minute. If they came as well, we would have gotten a majorly huge room! Which would be so frigging cool! 'Cos there'd be a corner for the singing person to sit and sing! How cool! But ours was not too bad either! We kept singing. And I sang till I lost my voice, so like 2 hours + to the end, I totally couldn't sing low songs anymore. How horrible!! Some songs, I usually can reach the male part, like Ti Amo, but in the end, I couldn't so I ended up switching roles with Ruixin and sing the female part. Ahhhh :( My voice is ok now -_- How scary. When I was speaking, my voice was almost gone then. I was afraid that I would lose my voice for real. Thank god I didn't. My voice is really very important to me. I was super off form yesterday, so I must have deafen them! :O Hahahaha. We got damn high, we started standing while singing, and we were screaming Hey hey you you! I don't like your girlfriend! Like crazy. Hahaha. It was so so so cool. Sorry Sharlene, for not answering all your missed calls because the phone was in my bag and my bag was on the floor -_-! Well, sorry girls, if I killed your eardrums and stuff ._. I don't think I'm a very fun person to sing with. And yea, I kept torturing Sharon's doll. Like shake it madly, and the eyes will keep blinking and then there'll be this chattering sound. Hahaha, I don't know why! When I see dolls, I'll love torturing them. Aiyah, I think they're really irritating? Especially after watching scary shows on them, like this doll was evil, then she got barbecued in the microwave, people threw her away, then she crawled back up from the well. Another one, was evil, wanted revenge, was walking outside the house and got strucked by lightning. Another evil doll, he started making normal dolls come alive, and he stuffed one doll into a jar! So evil right! And the look and the mouth which is like can move, with the chin (How retarded -_-), so scary. Sorry Sharon. I've got nothing against you but it always seem as if I'm bullying you :O (I must stop it!) I just have this thing against dolls. But you're really really really nice!! I like Sharon a lot! And sadly, I bullied her until I almost forgot she was from EDS until I saw her at the CCA phototaking -_- Eh, I'm damn evil right. Ahh. Ok, I love clan! :D Clan outings will be fun fun fun, just like this one time. Joy can sing really well! And Deborah's voice is damn cute. LOL. I sound horrible X_X Ack. Enjoy the song! I don't know why I'm still crazy over Ben Romans. My Facebook says, Huien Loi : Ben Romans sets my heart ablaze!!! Hehehe. Wake up to my love, tonight.
Ah. I thought I got the white form. So it turned out, Mr Yap didn't see any white form for me. Sometimes, people just get enthusiastic about certain things. Yea, so because of such happenings, I almost rolled down the stairs yesterday -_-I think I shocked those people around the stairs. I was like running like mad away from the almost nearing disaster (O_^) and then, there were so many random people blocking the way and I was squeezing through and I missed a few steps and started sliding down with the sole of my shoe, and I stopped at a certain stairs, ran down a little, and slid down some more. Lol. Sounds cool. Scary ok -_- Could have twisted my ankle. And then today, Angela and I were happily walking out of toilet, and then we sensed upcoming danger nearby, so we walked a little and then once we were at the stairs, we started running like mad back to class and hide. LOL. Like Tom and Jerry. I hate such mouse and cat games. Especially since after I was told, once I was in blacklist, that could spell disaster -_- Dang. Enough of that, some things went wrong today and stuff :( And yea, I've decided that I'm not going back to PeiChun. Yea, well, have been deciding for almost 4 days! It's time to make a decision and answer to my friends, from both sides. It was just one incident that just totally made me erupted and I just like, in that split moment, during lesson today, I just decided,"That's it! I'm so going out with 3F people." Thanks to you, eh sucky lor. I didn't want to blog about this. Was trying to be nice, and not mean, and then I just couldn't stand your sucky attitude. So I don't really give a damn if you are like reading this now. I don't owe you anything, so I don't see why you are giving me such stupid attitude when I didn't even like talk to you in some mean manner. If you can randomly sms me,"Zomg I saw Qiya." for like, seriously, no reason at all, I don't see why can't I also reply you back,"I saw Amelia today at AMK Hub." If you're really irritated about the fact that I asked,"Should I go back?", you can jolly well just ignore that sms. I wasn't even being rude or what? And this is the shit I get. 'That's what you say every year and spend 5 hours at Mos Burger. It's really up to you, doesn't affect me.' Sorry, to others, who don't really understand why I'm being all so worked up, when it don't really mean much. I'm sorry but you've just crossed the limit. I don't bloody say that kind of thing every year. For the past 2 years, I was always damn sure, I'd be going back to PeiChun and the main reason, is because of YOU. And then, it was why I don't even have to make any decision about whether I should go back because I thought it was a really natural thing, and the whole Mos Burger thing only happened last year? You went off with your friends anyway? Was it my fault? Then during 2006 that year (?), you were busy talking to your friends, I just sat alone in canteen like some bloody loner. See what I mean? I go back, I don't even know whether my friends are there. I only found them like some time later, while you were busy talking to your ex-classmates (and ex-girlfriends). When you said on MSN that you are going back to look for any chio juniors, I could have jolly well said,"Good job. It doesn't really affect me anyway. Have fun and lay one of them. You'll be a real man by Teachers' Day." Doesn't make any sense right. I didn't even say anything offensive? All I smsed was, "Saw Amelia at AMK Hub just now. She's going back so maybe I should go back. Though I don't really know what I should say to my classmates." I don't really see what I've done to get that kind of attitude. But I cooly just ignored that shit sms and yea, I've made my decision. And we're all busy people. So if you want your nail filer back, please settle on a timing soon. I don't want to hold on to it for such a long time. Don't come suddenly spring surprise on me and ask if I'm in Bishan and then I don't have it since you didn't even say that you want it. Then when we plan to meet up on a day to return, you don't even bother to say that you won't be coming, and only replied when I ask you if you want it back or not. Sorry, I still treat you with respect, which is why I want to arrange a timing, and hope that we both can meet and then everything would be over once and for all. But you're being all irresponsible when you just have like really last minute stuff (Be it serious or not) and you don't bother to tell. I bother to ask and wait for you is because I respect you. Don't make me lose that respect for you. I didn't ask to be enemies. Now it's me, being perfectly cool about everything. So stop your shitty attitude towards me. I really hate it when people just do something and they don't even bother to tell you. Like totally just plan to keep you in the dark. If you get what I mean. Zzz, I'll go off to do my Geog essay. Damn tired alright. I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart.
Sorry dancers, for the sudden breakout, like yea.Somehow, there are many things going through my mind, moving really quickly in my head like bullet trains, and so many things have happened this year, and it seems as if I don't react quickly to them. Since the start of year, many (rather saddening) stuff have been happening. From 23 January, it was the day whereby I learnt to live a life of my own once again. Being all independent, and I got stronger. I didn't cry that easily anymore. And it was when, I started to keep my feelings all to myself. There would be times whereby, I would just be silent the whole day. Then things started to unfold slowly. This year has been a really stressful year, especially during this period of time, whereby I'm supposed to be the strongest? I'm starting to break down both physically and mentally. I'm going to be insane soon. Like real soon. Thanks so much dudes, you all totally helped so much man. Like totally. Things happening in the family, then studies, then social circle of friends. How I wish things could go back to Primary school times. I missed all the fun I had. My maths was like 80+ coming 90? (Like everyone could do it and stuff) and I just loved all the teachers? Miss Chia, Mrs Chen, Mrs Lim, all of them were so fun-loving. We could just play April Fools' jokes on them. And then there was this whole mixing me and Xinyuan up thing. Qiya and I were best friends. Then I had Dengue Fever, and missed school for 2 whole weeks, when PSLE was like coming soon. And when I returned to school, I fall into a whole mental depression thing due to some friendship stuff. But primary school is just so innocent? It's so funny when I think about how long Xinyuan and my friendship has been. We were classmates since Primary 2? But we weren't exactly friends until we were in P5? For practically no reason, we just disliked each other, and in P5, we were so close. Iris, her and I had this really cool book thing, whereby we created our own story and could make up the weirdest and craziest things ever. Primary school is just so cool (Though I hated the way I behaved, how childish). And to think, I kept thinking,"When can I go to secondary school? It seems so fun!" when actually, it's just a stupid nightmare in disguise. And I think about whether I should go with clan and others to sing after Teachers' Day celebration this Friday. Should I? I'm starting to have a cough. But I wanna go and have fun. But I really wanna go back to PeiChun too. I still remember last year, the pact Xinyuan, Sharlene, Amelia, Jovina and I (Did I miss out anyone?), we were chatting happily in MOS for like hours and we promised to do the same thing again this year? It was so fun, complaining about our own school, talking about stuff going on, knowing secrets in other top schools. I really do miss 6A people. But like what Jiasheng mentioned on the class blog,"I must say, 6A isn't my top priority. And the sad truth would probably be that it will never be." From Class Blog Jiasheng is amazing. He ends with 'tata'. Cute nevertheless. I really shouldn't like bottle up my feelings that much anymore, well, but I won't like exactly bare it all out here. I just want to release all that stress in me, through this (not so) short post and yea, with not vulgarities, and try to be cool about everything. In this whole new year, there were many challenges to due with. Like teacher forever catching attire (I must say I improved ok. I haven't get caught for my earholes yet. And I tuck in like quite a bit of my shirt, so it's like no tails at the back, just that I've been caught like many times for my canvas shoes), teachers that aren't friendly, teachers' that can't teach. Then when it came to Semester 2, I am in this whole SSS thing. (If only it meant Singapore Sports School.) Sumei asked me if I felt bad and stuff, and I just shook my head and smile. Actually, I don't really know whether I feel left out and stuff. Maybe it's a mixture of feelings. Like, yes, I do feel left out and stuff, it's unavoidable, especially when it's like, there's this additional stress because I'm supposed to be like doing something extra for EDS, but then how can anyone be so dumb and stuff. And everyone's like dancing, or doing pushups or jazz situps, and other routines, and I just arrive, throw my bag down and rush to the toilet to change. And you just like silently stand at the back and stuff. But one thing for sure is that, during SSS, I do like practise maths. So I actually like spend 2 hours of quality time doing some self-revision and so on. I've just got a really bad fear of not being able to pass this year? Especially when my supposedly best subject, is just about to be screwed, thanks to some suck cock shit LA film. Seriously, I'm going bonkers. I'm starting to lose my marbles. You then start to regret, why didn't I start earlier, then I won't be in this fix now. I also wish to start earlier but sadly, most of the discussion sessions just turn out unproductive. 2008 has passed so quickly. And I'm still living in this whole stupid damned dream. I really want to find someone, to talk to, pour out our my deepest sorrows, and just cry like mad, use up boxes of tissues, ignore anyone who stares at me and stuff. But it's quite hard. Especially when the only person that I can really pour all my feelings out to, and he understands me the best, can't really be there for me, since he's like so busy with his personal and school life. I've just got to cope with my own life well. And maybe I shouldn't start to feel horrible right now. The more I think, the more I want to cry, then the more I prevent myself from crying, and I end up flaring my nostrils. And it feels frigging uncomfortable. So should I go back to PCPS? Or go sing KTV? How I wish I could split into 2 and just go for both. But I seriously have got no money. Broke. Like totally. Heart shattered, wallet's empty. When the going gets tough, the tough does not necessarily get going. My quotes are starting to be pessimistic. I should have seen it coming but I guess I'm not the only fool.
I'm sorry people. Have been ranting much about dislike about Maths recently. How stupid! Why waste my energy and be angry over one subject, that is so !?!?Ok well, I'm happy happy! First day of tuition was not bad. Though I don't really know why everyone starts to laugh at some things the teacher says, because he says something that's a seriously, not funny and then everyone's like,"UHHHH. HAHAHAHA!" (Maybe trying to be nice or sarcastic) and I'm like O_^ "Are you sure that's even funny?" or Was that meant to be a joke? Yea! But nevertheless, ok, I really really do hope I learn something and make use of whatever knowledge that I've been taught! And yea, Wenzhong didn't come because he claimed that HE WOKE UP LATE. Zzz. (I don't think so, I smsed him in the morning and he replied O_^ Obviously he went for LA filming or something along that line?) From Angela's blog, which I was thought was really cute :D  Mr Yap seriously has a way with our class! Our class is not that easy to handle! Since we're like so naughty and everything. Teaching us is probably the worst thing that can ever happen to your life! (Unless you're Mr Yap or Mr Leong) :D I really do hope he carries out his 'promise' that the last few to hand in will have to present to both our class and 3G. So hmmmm. I don't think I will be that unlucky since I think I was like the first few to hand in and on time? (Yes, Justin?) Yea, but imagine those who are handing in late all decide not to bring their portfolio so they need not present! :O Ok, horrible! I think Strepsils really do work! I was having a really baaaaad sorethroat, like my throat was damn sore, I had difficulties eating, and ate damn bloody slow and when I took, now my throat is no longer sore! Just that I'm having a cough now :( Not very good, what about filming?! Speak with your tongue tied.
Sometimes I really don't know what y'all want. Here I am, trying to do something about my maths, like hello? I'm trying to make sure I improve and like secure a pass at least? And there you are, still complaining because of various reasons?Y'know, I would like to stop revolving round this stupid topic over and over again. But when I want to join like a tuition, and then you start comparing with bro's teacher and saying everything that's so good about it and stuff, like how you can save travelling time and whatever. But what's the difference? I'M TRYING VERY HARD ALREADY OK! YOU BLIND OR WHAT? CAN'T SEE MY EFFORTS? So at the end of the day, you're just trying to tell me that, If I'm doing nothing about my maths, IT'S MY FAULT. If I'm trying to do something about my maths, IT'S MY FAULT AS WELL? What kind of logic is this!? And then I can imagine you telling me, LOOK, IT'S GOOD THAT YOU'RE DOING SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR MATHS, BUT YOU SHOULD WEIGH THE FACTORS AND SEE WHICH TUITION WILL GIVE YOU MORE BENEFIT? LIKE BRO'S, IT WILL HELP SAVE TRAVELLING TIME, AND IT'S ONE ON ONE, AND BETTER STILL, IT'S IN YOUR OWN HOUSE AND YOU CAN HAVE IT ANYTIME. It's all crap, I tell you. My friend's being nice and all to tell me to join a tuition and then you have to care so much. I really don't know what you want but all I'm going to do is just give my best shot at this whole shit subject, that I really don't wish to care about. And about doing the things that I'm best at rather than doing the things that I love? I understand this, I think this whole logic is right. But what if the the thing that I love is the thing I'm best at? When I say love, I don't mean being a coach potato and watch TV all they long or do nonsense on the computer. I mean like, playing an instrument or drawing and stuff? Even my best subjects in school, which is like HCl or LA is only a B, and they're not say VERY FANTASTIC either? This world is full of confusions. You're so unreasonable too. Nobody argued with you and you started talking so much crap, and it's MY FAULT again. Suck cock please. If you work hard, you're not really working smart. But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
Russia is just so amazing when it comes to Synchronized Swimming! They're like so perfect, which give them almost perfect scores! Rhythmic Gymnastic (Group) is like damn cool too! Though I think it's more like acrobatic and dance rather than gymnastics but it's like so entertaining! :DD'you know what does 五次方乐团 mean? Sound ridiculous right. It's actually The Click Five. Other band names ain't that ridiculous in Chinese, I think. Unless you can really think of an even more ridiculous one. Have you like heard the 'A Twist In My Story' version of 'Your Call' and the 'Awake' version of 'Your Call'? The older version is like much nicer, like seriously, many many many times nicer than the 'A Twist In My Story' version. I feel that the newer one has this lack of punch in the song. Compared with the older version, it's not as refreshing. And the whole bass, and heavy effect kind of masks up everything, which covers up the whole singing thing. I don't know if you get what I mean, or you'll probably understand if you heard both versions. :) I'm already taking a step out and trying to do something about my Maths. Why must you still complain? Isn't it good that I'm trying to make one subject pass? It's a subject that I hate so much with my entire life, it just sucks ok. Counting stupid numbers, solving stupid equations, looking at stupid alpha, betas, delta, gamma, stupid alphabets and countless of stupid mathematical stuff that I don't like and will never ever understand them. And you still have to go on ranting about why I can't be taught by you. Look, maybe you're a oh-so fantastic teacher when it comes to teaching other people that are not YOUR kids and when it comes to your children, you just lose your temper so bloody easily. It sucks to be taught by you ok, no matter how good you are, you are still another person who don't really see other people's needs and whatever not. It's not like I'm not working nor trying. It just sucks big time. Don't even understand why we must learn such a shitty subject. Even other subjects that I'm trying to understand have all started to include all this stupid mathematical stuff. Mole concept, physics, all so stupid. I'd rather write many essays then to solve maths equations, drawing graphs, and finding the number of moles and what yield percentage.  I thought this was rather cool! But Ruixin says normally it's like super ugly. Hahaha, well, it's not like I'll use fake eyelashes anyway. I don't even know how to do basic makeup.  I wanna get this shirt! :( Don't you think it's so bloody cute! :D :D :D And end the post with a smiley picture :) To brighten up your night! I know what you're thinking................. Your computer isn't lagging lah! Scroll down some more! It's not porn okay!  From Nick's Friendster.
It made me learn to hate you.
Nothing much today, just some, y'know, rantings (As usual, I know you're getting so bored of them because I always sound so evil!) and yea, some interesting stuff, from like super long time ago.Doppelganger Incident    Oh wait, Shikai, is it ok for me to post that up???? L IS FOR LAME.  CONVERSATION WITH JJ. Ms Low Beauty is in the eye of the beholder (Because of the whole Angela-K thing -_-) You know, you see on the streets, this pretty pretty girl with some ugly guy? Or this handsome handsome guy with an ugly girl? SLEEPING JUSTIN. Me *wakes up from sleep during HCL (Oh, I just remembered I didn't hand in my file!), sees Justin sleeping like pig, so decides to slap him* Oh yes, I seriously can't stand MRT peak hours! You know, it's like if I can avoid them, I would do. It's not like I'm so boliao to squeeze with other random smelly people. But, y'know, if a train was like really packed to the maximum, you won't be so stupid and just like squeeze in like nobody's business right? It's like at most you wait for like a few more trains, unless you're in a bloody rush or something? So I was on the train, and it was so bloody full already, and this woman just had to keep pushing in, then I was like, ok, still bearable. Then the door closed, and she was like WHAM and she pushed so much and I was like squashed to the maximum and I totally got damn pissed lor. You scared your ass get kiap then you not worried about making other people become fruit juice meh? I'm not trying to make a fuss or anything. Haiyah, I don't really know how to explain myself. I told the rest I wasn't going to blog about this anyway. But sometimes, I really can't stand the fact how inconsiderate some people can be. Zzz. Then I start ranting with all the vulgarities lor. And then in the end I get a bad image right? And the person who squeezed me like mad can happily stand with such a huge personal space. Screw you old woman! (Well you aren't old, but you'll be tomorrow! Grrrrr) PHYSICS TEST WAS SO SCREWED. -ANGRY- :@:@:@ SO BLOODY UNFAIR FOR NUTS. I hope class & cca phototaking pictures would turn out ok! Don't tell me that we will never be together.
Many things I need to say today. Well, insignificant to you but rather significant to me! :OThere are many things I really hate (Be it people or situations) 1. Kids who act as if they're damn smart and quarrel over really trivial matter. When I say trivial, I really mean trivial stuff like cutting queue when doing our routines. D'you know why I hate kids? I was once a kid which is why I'm convinced I hate kids. I hate that phase from like kindergarten till p6. These are the times whereby kids are at their most irritating and dislikeable age. Like totally. Well, as in most kids. Some kids are like really nice but most of the kids I've met are either bossy, arrogant, act smart and so on. Bossy kids. Kids that can't do their own stuff well and go around telling their fellow friends what to do and they act as if they're the big boss and they've got the right to tell people what to do and everything that they do is so damn right. But no, they're just an irritating bunch of kids. One of the worse breeds ever. Arrogant kids. Those who always show off what they've got and what they can do. It's no doubt, they have a certain something (Be it item or skill) but they will make a lot of noise when others want to compete with them as well. Irritating much, but still quite acceptable. Act Smart kids. Probably the worse of all kinds. Think they're damn smart, do things a certain way, in the end, all they get is just a lashing. Always commenting on topics that they don't really understand and in the end, they only make a fool out of themselves. Disgusting. 2. People who have high expectations of people and don't seem to understand their ability. Have always been ranting on the topic about myself not being able to cope with maths. And my mum just came up with the most ridiculous thing today. She said, 1) I should try for Grade 7 Theory next March (Or better still, this November) 2) I can try for Diploma at the end of next year. I was so agitated when I replied her! I was like,"SYF IS LIKE MARCH NEXT YEAR! I WILL BE SO GODAMNIT BUSY AND HOW D'YOU EXPECT ME TO CONCENTRATE ON TWO IMPORTANT STUFF AND ONE TIME? D'YOU WANT ME TO DIE!?!?!?!" And the Diploma thing, I just brushed her off and said it's impossible. Will take it like in 2010. Ok, this is still ok, at least it doesn't bugs me as much as Maths does. Well, I've got really good news! I PASSED GREAT 8 PRACTICAL!! Woohoo! -runs around and laughs happily! HAHAHAHAHA!!! YAY, AFTER FAILING IT LAST YEAR, I FINALLY DID IT! At first, I was so nervous, and then I was like staring at it, and it says,"CERTIFICATES. Please do not bend." So obviously, I've secured a pass! And I opened it and yes! 104/150! Though it's like really sucky, since I only passed by 4 miserable marks but at least I can move on to Diploma! Yay! I'm so excited about Diploma. Playing really crazy high difficulty song and being able to choose pieces that I want! I was so proud of my Aural because during the exam, I was damn sure for most of the answers and the examiner was really lovely too! Pieces. B3: You were sensitive to the stylistic requirements here and theme was some delicate articulation. It's a pity the progress became rather erratic and the tempo got much faster. Also, the cross rythms were not accurate. The dynamic contrast available in the development section was not realised and the 3rds passage lacked authority (?). A times, this melody has allowed to sing with great musical character. 20/30 A1: This was firmly established and the melodic strands were developed but the phrasing needed a chance to breathe. There was some stylistic articulation but the tempo was not always controlled. In the Fugue, the subject and answers need great definition as they tended to get lost in the overall texture. Some crisp fingerwork, but some passagework was confused today. 18/30 C2: The light and airy character of the music was conveyed successfully at the opening and there was humour realised in these sudden harmonic shifts. Unfortunately, progress became hindered when we experienced some lapsed chordal passages. The end 'Allegro Vivo', 'ff' passage was far too reserved, and the end climax was not evident. 21/30 Scales and Arpeggios. All known, with a good sense of flow and momentum. There were difficulties in right hand 3rd scale. (B Flat Major and C Major). Also, some coordination difficulties in the chromatic and staccato scale. Slight blemishes in the arpeggios. Quick response. 17/21 Sight Reading. This kept going, but the pulse was not steadqy and there were many errors of notes. Outline is evidence throughout. 14/21 Aural Tests. Very good attempt. Cadence, and the 2nd modulation were both incorrect. Also, period of composition and texture were not accurate at D. Some pleasing responses throughout, however. 14/18 Additional Comments. There were some very genuine and sincere elements in your programme today. At times, there were very musical characteristics but, rhythmically, the playing was sometimes lacking in authority. You have worked well and this is a well-deserved pass. Well, a pass by only 4 marks but he said it's a well-deserve pass! At least I've got a load off my head! D'you know the C piece, which I scored the highest among all the pieces, is my lousiest piece? Bye for now! You and I will be free, to live and die by our own rules.
Post on Doppelgänger as promised. Well, to start off, what are some of the definitions of Doppelgänger. From Wikipedia And some supposedly real cases, From Wikipedia. John Donne Izaak Walton claimed that John Donne, the English metaphysical poet, saw his wife's doppelgänger in 1612 in Paris, on the same night as the stillbirth of their daughter. Two days after their arrival there, Mr. Donne was left alone, in that room in which Sir Robert, and he, and some other friends had dined together. To this place Sir Robert returned within half an hour; and, as he left, so he found Mr. Donne alone; but, in such Extasie, and so altered as to his looks, as amazed Sir Robert to behold him: insomuch that he earnestly desired Mr. Donne to declare befall him in the short time of his absence? to which, Mr. Donne was not able to make a present answer: but, after a long and perplex pause, did at last say, I have seen a dreadful Vision since I saw you: I have seen my dear wife pass twice by me through this room, with her hair hanging about her shoulders, and a dead child in her arms: this, I have seen since I saw you. To which, Sir Robert reply'd; Sure Sir, you have slept since I saw you; and, this is the result of some melancholy dream, which I desire you to forget, for you are now awake. To which Mr. Donnes reply was: I cannot be surer that I now live, then that I have not slept since I saw you: and am, as sure, that at her second appearing, she stopped, and looked me in the face, and vanished. This account first appears in the edition of Life of Dr John Donne published in 1675, and is attributed to "a Person of Honour... told with such circumstances, and such asseveration, that... I verily believe he that told it me, did himself believe it to be true." At the time Donne was indeed extremely worried about his pregnant wife, and was going through severe illness himself. However, R. C. Bald points out that Walton's account "is riddled with inaccuracies. He says that Donne crossed from London to Paris with the Drurys in twelve days, and that the vision occurred two days later; the servant sent to London to make inquiries found Mrs Donne still confined to her bed in Drury House. Actually, of course, Donne did not arrive in Paris until more than three months after he left England, and his wife was not in London but in the Isle of Wight. The still-born child was buried on 24 January.... Yet as late as 14 April Donne in Paris was still ignorant of his wife's ordeal." In January, Donne was still at Amiens. His letters do not support the story as given. Abraham Lincoln Carl Sandburg's biography contains the following: A queer dream or illusion had haunted Lincoln at times through the winter. On the evening of his election he had thrown himself on one of the haircloth sofas at home, just after the first telegrams of November 6 had told him he was elected President, and looking into a bureau mirror across the room he saw himself full length, but with two faces. It bothered him; he got up; the illusion vanished; but when he lay down again there in the glass again were two faces, one paler than the other. He got up again, mixed in the election excitement, forgot about it; but it came back, and haunted him. He told his wife about it; she worried too. A few days later he tried it once more and the illusion of the two faces again registered to his eyes. But that was the last; the ghost since then wouldn't come back, he told his wife, who said it was a sign he would be elected to a second term, and the death pallor of one face meant he wouldn't live through his second term. This is adapted from Washington in Lincoln's Time (1895) by Noah Brooks, who claimed that he had heard it from Lincoln himself on 9 November 1864, at the time of his re-election, and that he had printed an account "directly after." He also claimed that the story was confirmed by Mary Todd Lincoln, and partially confirmed by Private Secretary John Hay (who thought it dated from Lincoln's nomination, not his election). Brooks's version is as follows (in Lincoln's own words): It was just after my election in 1860, when the news had been coming in thick and fast all day and there had been a great "hurrah, boys," so that I was well tired out, and went home to rest, throwing myself down on a lounge in my chamber. Opposite where I lay was a bureau with a swinging glass upon it (and here he got up and placed furniture to illustrate the position), and looking in that glass I saw myself reflected nearly at full length; but my face, I noticed had two separate and distinct images, the tip of the nose of one being about three inches from the tip of the other. I was a little bothered, perhaps startled, and got up and looked in the glass, but the illusion vanished. On lying down again, I saw it a second time, plainer, if possible, than before; and then I noticed that one of the faces was a little paler — say five shades — than the other. I got up, and the thing melted away, and I went off, and in the excitement of the hour forgot all about it — nearly, but not quite, for the thing would once in a while come up, and give me a little pang as if something uncomfortable had happened. When I went home again that night I told my wife about it, and a few days afterward I made the experiment again, when (with a laugh), sure enough! the thing came back again; but I never succeeded in bringing the ghost back after that, though I once tried very industriously to show it to my wife, who was somewhat worried about it. She thought it was a "sign" that I was to be elected to a second term of office, and that the paleness of one of the faces was an omen that I should not see life through the last term. Lincoln was known to be superstitious, and old mirrors will occasionally produce double images; whether this Janus illusion can be counted as a doppelgänger is perhaps debatable, though probably no more than other such claims of doppelgängers. An alternate consideration, however, suggests that Lincoln suffered vertical strabismus in his left eye, a disorder which could induce visions of a vertically-displaced image. Johann Wolfgang von Goethe Near the end of Book XI of his autobiography, Dichtung und Wahrheit ("Truth and Fiction"), Goethe wrote, almost in passing: Amid all this pressure and confusion I could not forego seeing Frederica once more. Those were painful days, the memory of which has not remained with me. When I reached her my hand from my horse, the tears stood in her eyes; and I felt very uneasy. I now rode along the foot-path toward Drusenheim, and here one of the most singular forebodings took possession of me. I saw, not with the eyes of the body, but with those of the mind, my own figure coming toward me, on horseback, and on the same road, attired in a dress which I had never worn, — it was pike-gray [hecht-grau], with somewhat of gold. As soon as I shook myself out of this dream, the figure had entirely disappeared. It is strange, however, that, eight years afterward, I found myself on the very road, to pay one more visit to Frederica, in the dress of which I had dreamed, and which I wore, not from choice, but by accident. However it may be with matters of this kind generally, this strange illusion in some measure calmed me at the moment of parting. The pain of quitting for ever noble Alsace, with all I had gained in it, was softened; and, having at last escaped the excitement of a farewell, I, on a peaceful and quiet journey, pretty well regained my self-possession. This is a rare example of a doppelgänger which is both benign and reassuring. Emilie Sagée Robert Dale Owen was responsible for writing down the singular case of Emilie Sagée. He was told this anecdote by Julie von Güldenstubbe, a Latvian aristocrat. Von Güldenstubbe reported that in the year 1845–46, at the age of 13, she witnessed, along with audiences of between 13 and 42 children, her 32-year-old French teacher Sagée bilocate, in broad daylight, inside her school, Pensionat von Neuwelcke. The actions of Sagée's doppelgänger included: * Mimicking writing and eating, but with nothing in its hands. * Moving independently of Sagée, and remaining motionless while she moved. * Appearing to be in full health at a time when Sagée was badly ill. Apparently, the doppelgänger also exerted resistance to the touch, but was non-physical (one girl passed through the doppelgänger's body I know the information is really lengthy. But after Shikai told me all that, I was so freaked out but I was interested as well. Because you never know whether this is real or fake! But all I know I didn't dare look into mirrors or even at my own glass reflections for fear of seeing something that's me but I know that isn't exactly me. And I've always thought that I didn't fear death. I thought I'd be able to face it bravely until I realise how fearful I was of something that had like less than 1% possibility? Then I sorted out my thoughts. If I'm destined to die at a particular time, I will somehow, no matter how much I try to avoid it. If the time isn't right, no matter how much I want to die (Which is kind of impossible unless I've got really strong overwhelming suicidal thoughts), then I wouldn't be able to die too! Plus, I can't go on hiding from mirrors and reflections forever! I need it like everyday, when I'm combing my hair and even during dance practises, I need to see the way I dance. I think what I fear most, is not just the thought of dying when I see a double but rather, don't you think you'll die from shock, when you look into the mirror, and you just stand normally but your reflection is someone who's like doing some other action and smirking away at you evilly? Though this whole apparition thing sort of relates me to The X-Family, which talks about like, if your counterpart from another dimension has arrived to the dimension you belong in, you'll be weakened and the counterpart will slowly absorb your (whatever) and you'll like slowly disappear form your dimension. It's really that scary. Well, if you happen to walk home one day, and see someone that looks like you, or if you see your reflection doing something that you're not doing and he/she even talks to you, maybe you could try saying hi :O Because another version is that, when you see your own Doppelgänger, you'll get good luck. But of all the examples given, all of them died. And plus, that double is evil in nature. How much luck would he/she give to you? When he/she is slowly sucking you away from this world? Not a million fights could make me hate you.
Oh great. 300 posts. Something to rejoice about? Maybe not.You always said I was lazy, I didn't want to do maths, I didn't want to practise. Sometimes, have you ever felt that your expectations are just way to demanding? D'you even understand what's it like to be unable to understand stupid numbers, equations, graphs, random alphabets and mathematical signs? Hello, it's not like I didn't try. I tried to do my Logarithms assignment on my own and I just feel like pulling all my hair out of my head. You tell my teacher that I can't do well in this subjects (2 subjects actually, how sucky) because I'm just plain lazy, I don't want to practise, don't want to ask and so on. Of course it's easy for you to say all that, without even thinking how much you can hurt others because all your maths grades in your whole life were either full marks, A* or As. You've always talked about how everyone in your family never failed maths before, and everyone got at least a B and so on. Y'know what? At the end of the say, what I'm thinking is, So what? So what if they can solve equations so well? So what if they understood alphabets and numbers so well? So what if they've never failed maths in their entire life? Y'all think understanding those stupid numbers and alphabets is so fucking easy? Hello, you wanna try to be in my shoes for just 1 day or 1 hour? You know how difficult it is to even solve just one easy question? You place all your expectations, saying that I should pass all my maths test, and to ace them as well, just because you're some freaky math genius. Look, That's YOU. That's YOUR THINKING. But that's NOT ME. You are you. I'm your daughter. We're hell lot of a difference ok. You are not very tall, you have brown hair, you have very oily face, you can sprint, you can draw, you can scold people really well, you play in the band, you have tried basketball, hockey, all kinds of random sports before. But I'm (very :D) tall, I have super black hair, my face ain't as oily as yours, I hate running, I can't draw that well but I have that love and passion for it, I can scold people (Maybe that's the only thing I inherited from you. Bad temper and scolding people skills), I don't play in the band, I hate ball games. In a way, because we're really different, which is why we're the same. But that's not the point. Don't you ever think that your demands are way far-fetched and unreasonable? I scored F for my Maths 1. D for my Maths 2. You were so shocked and angry and started reprimanding me in front of Mr Yap and Ms Low. You try to use material goods to make me 'work' towards YOUR goals. Look, they aren't even MY goals. You say, you'd buy a new laptop for me, if I score an A* for my maths (Be it overall or EOYs). Don't you think that's way ridiculous? From a fail to a total ace, you think I'm some super math girl or what? Hey, using material goods to make me work hard doesn't anymore ok. Because no matter how hard I've tried or worked, you don't ever seem to notice them. All you see, are just my flaws and my incompetency. You think I don't want to do well in maths? I want to be like my classmates, able to solve like questions so quickly and ask intelligent questions. For me, it takes me like such a long time to solve one easy question. I want to ask intelligent questions as well but I don't really know what I can ask. And when you insist that I should be taught by you, I did try to let you teach me. But when you got really angry, that I don't seem to understand and register what you have taught after like so many times, you'd lose your temper and start scolding me. Remember when I was still learning how to do long division, you were teaching me for like so many times, and I still couldn't get it. You started scolding me and being the usual crybaby, I'd just lock myself up in the room and cry like nobody's fucking business? Until Daddy patiently taught me, I like understood once he taught me. See the difference? You just pour all your stupid expectations which are so unrealistic on someone like me. You just want things your way through the fastest and smartest methods but can't you see that such methods only work for really smart people like (perhaps) you? For the last few tests, I studied on my own, I wanted to prove to myself, that without you, I'd be able to marginally pass my tests? And I managed to pass 3 marginally. Maybe it's something not enough for you to praise me. But at least, when I put in an effort, to study for something that seemed so incomprehensible, I managed to pass. Hello, I passed WITHOUT you. 3 tests may not be half of the tests that I took this year but this was what I managed to get using my own sucky ability. At least I tried, and I understood what's it like to be truly contented. Sometimes, I really wonder, have you ever thought about what I really wanted in life? Everything you did for me, you just wanted to pave my future. Something that I don't really like. Maths and science are important. But what happens if a person just really can't do well in those subjects? Is he/she supposed to just wallow in self-despair or what? Why can't there be a graded subject whereby I'm truly interested in. If only art was graded. Things might just be better. Have you ever thought what I wanted to study in the future. I just keep thinking, I've got to do arts, if not music. I've got my own dreams and goals. I kind of have an idea as to what I want to do in the future. It's just that I'm unsure whether things would work out the way I want. I guess I've really calmed down now. Sometimes I really hate the fact that going to university is a norm. In the past, studying in a university would lead to a bonus in your career, you'd earn much more. But even if you didn't have a degree, you'd still do well. Then, people would fight with all their might to get into JCs then university. Polytechnics were considered as 2nd option. Now, even polytechnics are targeted by smart people. It's hard to survive. And your expectations and comparisons are not helping either. How can I love you? If you just don't talk to me babe.
Tuition is getting more boring :( That's really sad. Well, Ms Ho asked like,"Why d'you want to go the university?"And so I replied,"Actually, I wanna go to Berklee College of Music." Ms Ho,"Why?" Me, thinks for a moment, and decides to joke,"Because The Click Five graduated from there." Ms Ho, slaps her head and turns away,"What!? But their songs and videos contradict! Like 'Catch Your Wave'!" You must be wondering why she'd know all that. Me,"But they're really talented! Actually, I only admire the keyboardist greatly! And the lead singer is really talented! He can play the guitar, drums and keyboards!" Ms Ho, listens intensely and nods,"Your brother looks disgusted." Me, looks at Bro. Bro, covering his face in disgust. Thinking back about it, maybe I wasn't really joking after all. I realise, I don't actually know what I want in life? Like, people choose to go to university because it's the norm, it's the path everyone must take in order to survive in Singapore, a country whereby everything you do is based on a degree, which in other words, is a piece of paper. Actually, I don't really wanna like go to university (NUS, NTU, whatever) because I feel that I'm not cut out for that kind of studying. Like, if I study something that I'm interested it, it'd be so exciting. I'm not exactly like cut out for studies. Maths and science are like something that I'll never seem to understand, somehow. Oh well! Over to filming for LA. Now I know, it's not easy to film and act. Like filming, a short scene, of less than 1 minute, requires so much hard work. So many cuts. So many angles. Have to take a bit. Cut. Take from different angle and all you get is like less than 10 minutes. So first, I was like so so so so early. I reached in school like don't know how many minutes before the meeting time, and everyone else, except Janson was late, excluding Xingfang who wasn't coming. Janson and I then went around the Ghim Moh area to see which are the places to get good shots of some stuff and whatever. Went to school and discussed more stuff with Tianming and Serena. Junjie was like almost 1 hour late, because of some zharbor, apparently. It's so not easy to act. Either I'm not serious enough or I'm too serious. Grrrr :@ We then headed down to Ghim Moh, some random void deck and started filming and do more discussion. We were like changing in the void decks, and there were no toilets and no enclosed area apparently :O Amazing huh. Me (Starring as Jessica) was officially the person, who wore the most number of layer of clothes. I wore like 2 tops and then they told me, they'd start by filming the victim. So I had to force my 3/4 shirt up into my hoodie to ensure that it can't be seen then, wear school skirt, sit on the stairs and start crying. And then I was like, *sobbing, crying* and Yokeming said I sounded as if I was damn happy that I got flashed at. Huh. I kept laughing after 3s. If you think 3s was damn short, trying acting as if you're crying for 3s. You'll feel as if 10s had passed! On top of that, the sky was not really good to us. It decided to release it's tears on us and when we were standing in the drizzle filming. Had to keep running and talking. And alas, scenes at the void deck. Had to take so many shots and had to do lots of 'complicated' stuff. I had to run some more. And all the better, my slippers gave way and one of the straps broke. How!? So I wore Janson's slippers. Which were comfy. Hahaha, they were much softer than mine! Just that the slippers were huge! So Junjie and I ran up the stairs and when I was running up to 2nd floor, I tripped and fell at the stairs area. Thankfully not flat on my face. I was still grabbing the handle and my leg banged onto the stairs. It's not easy ok! NGs and stuff. We had to be natural, clear with our speech, know what we're doing and stuff. Shikai came and ended up looking after our bags. And Serena was evil! She was like Shikai, SaiKang. Both SK. Hahaha. Poor him. Oh wait, he doesn't deserve much sympathy for scaring the living shit out of me! (Grrr at you Shikai. I'm gonna get nightmares thanks to you!!!!) So there was a scene whereby it was mostly Junjie and Serena so Yokeming and I slacked and we were chatting with Shikai, about lots of things. And Shikai started to talk to me about Doppelgänger. Will explain more about it in the next post, probably. And I was like so freaked out, he kept scaring me, then he made up his own ghost story about the RJ campus gymnasium. And Yokeming had to talk about the red lady from Tanjong Rhu. And what month is it now!? It's like middle of the month some more! The evil aura is so 'heavy' (Whatever it's supposed to be said as). Ahhh, I don't know if the Doppelgänger thing is true but Bro just kept telling me that I was so superstitious. Went to toilet with the 2 crazy guys, and I was telling Shikai to like talk to me when I was in the toilet. Like, when he was outside. Apparently he didn't. In the toilet, there was like flushing sound running non-stop. And I quickly did my job, and washed my hands without looking into the mirror and ran out of the toilet. Phew. I peed faster than YM. Maybe I shouldn't be labelled as someone who pees at the speed of guys. Or rather someone who pees faster than YM, who is a guy. We were talking about what would happen if the whole class was drunk during chalet. I said,"Gang bang!" and Shikai was like,"Mass orgy." LOL. Can you imagine!? Oh my god. LOL. Shikai was saying that if I was drunk, the guys had to beware. Yah, true actually. You never know how horny and pervy I would be when I'm drunk :O Probably rape all the guys! Which is like EEW. And Yokeming had to say,"What if everyone was drunk, and you wake up, and you find yourself lying beside Nick?" And all 3 of us roared with laughter and the rest, who were filming their parts, told us to shut up -_-! So scary ok. On the train journy home, late in the night, well 9+ is late, (Considering the fact, last time after basketball training, I'd be like on my way home at 8+), the guys were playing Magic cards. And before YM and I alight from the train, Shikai said the most horrendous thing ever. "Scully your bro fetch home 'another sister', or maybe you ring the bell and the person who opens the door is your double." Wlao! Then when I was walking home, I was walking at the speed of light, diverting my concentration to my handphone music player and looking down on the floor when I walk and in the lift (Which had like so many mirrors), I just look at the lift door, the part whereby it's not glass and not reflective and just kept staring at it. Super scary! Shikai if you're reading this, you'd better comment on my blog! Hahaha, joking lah. Optional. I can imagine you laughing. Zz. Will get 'Behind the Scenes' pictures from Serena! Filming is quite fun actually :D I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive.
Nothing much for today, so more pictures on 3F's crazy gathering! Woohoo, picture credits to Serena.Mr Teo, is so friendly. He seriously seems more like a friend than a teacher. Serena saw him and she went like,"MR TEO!!!!" and he dodged away saying,"Simitaiji!" HAHAHA. Let your eyes feast on the pictures! :D  When the sky was still bright, and Huien was still at home.  Blurrrr.  Zexi and Mr Teo. He looks young!!!  Wenzhong, Serena Janson. Janson looks weird (As in body) here.  Angela and Janson.  Angel(a) and Angel(ine) :D   Rachel and Zexi.  Guess who? .JPG) Now we know (Exclude Jasmine. EXTRAAAA!!! HAHAHA)  Serena and Angela.  Me, Junjie, Zexi, Deborah. Yay, I love this picture. JJ never like avoid camera! LOL. Racial Harmony! Malay, Indian, Chinese (Treat as Eurasian!), Chinese! LOL. .JPG) Angela, Serena, Leon and I. Since when did Leon become our class most good-looking guy? .JPG) Angela, I and Deborah. We're not humping. Cleanse your mind that's filled with evil thoughts.  Double-twist!  Don't know what the hell he's doing. Yay, spot me! Hahaha, I think I look nice when you don't actually see my eyes.    Shikai.   Don't you think Justin and Budee look so alike -_-! And Justin looks gay here. HAHAHA.  Budee and Deborah! YAY. LOVE LOVE LOVE BUDEE! Will be off to filming soon! So not looking forward to it somehow. I feel that it'd be so screwed. My tears run down like razorblades.
I'm not ranting, I'm giving a warning, I know people will hate me after this but seriously, I don't care. You can say whatever you want but I'm putting my point across,right to YOU. I don't understand why some people can be so nosey and poke their noses into other people's business? Look, you know what? I don't think you'll read this but you might just know about this somehow. First, I don't care how you know about everything and stuff, and what makes you have such weird twisted ideas. But who are YOU to say that our beloved Form Teacher is scandalous? Who are YOU to judge our form teacher when he doesn't even teach you at all? I don't see what's wrong with getting into a relationship or getting married? What's so SCANDALOUS about it, huh? List out 10 reasons to convince me. Which I highly doubt you can do so, you're probably jealous that he's in a relationship so you're spreading untrue rumours or fake stuff that you think you know a lot about, which in actual fact, you had zero knowledge about it. I don't know where you heard it from, and you might have just heard distorted versions of it but whether it's true or false, I DON'T SEE WHAT POSITION YOU'RE IN TO SAY SUCH STUFF OF HIM. So you're trying to say that in the future, when you're still single not married and all old and wrinkly all over, preserving your first kiss, first hug, virginity (Probably all gone for the first 2 options), you're so pure and chaste and you're SO NOT scandalous? If our teacher isn't in a relationship, I think I'd be worrying for him. Y'know, maybe you'll be able to be single till you're age of 60 (If you live long enough and provided my brain still has enough memory to store your face and name in it), I can only say that. 1. You're an old spinster/bachelor/fart. 2. You're gay/lesbian. ISN'T DATING, MARRYING AND GETTING KIDS A NORMAL PHASE IN LIFE? IT'S LIKE 90% OF THE WHOLE WORLD PROBABLY DOES THAT? SO WHAT'S SO SCANDALOUS ABOUT IT? YOU MEAN YOU HAVEN'T DATE SOMEONE BEFORE? YOU MEAN YOU DON'T PLAN TO GET MARRIED? YOU MEAN YOU DON'T PLAN TO GET KIDS IN THE FUTURE OR, MAYBE YOU DON'T PLAN TO HAVE SEX FOR ENJOYMENT? 1. YOU'VE DATED BEFORE. 2. DON'T KNOW WHETHER YOU WANNA BECOME SOME OLD WITCH/WIZARD IN THE FUTURE, NOT MY PROBLEM ANYWAY. 3. I HIGHLY BELIEVE THAT YOU'LL NEVER REJECT SEX. So, what's your reason or agenda in saying that our teacher, being in a relationship is so scandalous? It's true that we have this whole admiration thing going on for him, but even those who so greatly admire him, thinks that what rubbish you've just said is just so unreasonable. It ain't a fair statement to him. If having a girlfriend/boyfriend and being engaged is scandalous (and you made it seem as if it's a sin), then wouldn't almost the whole world be so scandalous. Then what happens to all those really scandalous people that we see in the media? I didn't know everyone was scandalous. So being scandalous is such a normal thing eh? Maybe you'll never experience it again. I'm saying this, not trying to be mean and insult you but the highly false accusations of our teacher that YOU have said, makes me feel godamnit pissed. I can't stand it when someone says something bad and untrue about the person I highly admire. I'm happy that he's found someone to spend his life with, dedicating all his love to her. That's so sweet and romantic. What's so bad and wrong about it? So I just hope that you'll stop spreading false stuff of our teacher. Or in a meaner way, I meant SHUT THE FUCK UP :) And I hope you'll do so. |
