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And you're not the only one who's lonely.
The more people you can get connected to right now, the better -- for your career life as well as your love life! And it just so happens that today is a terrific day to expand your network. You're feeling the urge to socialize, and the opportunities to meet interesting people are going to be plentiful. People will be quite receptive to your charming ice breakers -- especially if you use a little bit of flattery. Make someone feel good about themselves, and they'll feel good about you. Oh nice. I think I did flatter you. Stir up unnecessary emotions. God. Tired. Pink Panther 2 is hilarious. Old-man fetish. Not. Stars feel like knives, they tell us why we're fighting.
Your dating personality profile:You matched the following traits: Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Your Top Ten Traits: 1. Liberal 2. Athletic 3. Sensual 4. Adventurous 5. Funny 6. Big-Hearted 7. Wealthy/Ambitious 8. Practical 9. Romantic 10. Stylish Your date match profile: You match with men who have following traits: Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living. Your Top Ten Match Traits: 1. Practical 2. Shy 3. Funny 4. Athletic 5. Big-Hearted 6. Adventurous 7. Traditional 8. Conservative 9. Romantic 10. Stylish Yes yes, I totally agree with my match thingy! Hahaha. I want a traditional conservative guy :) (WHAT, I KNOW YOU GUYS DON'T BELIEVE BUT IT'S TRUE OK) And I'm so not shy when it comes to my sexuality. HAHAHAHA. Omgosh, I never knew things could be done, well quite easily. I went to TM on my own (Far leh. I seriously hate going all the way to the East) and almost got lost. Hello!! This is only my THIRD time there. Can't help it if my antennas don't work well. But I managed to find the design shop quite easily. And the uncle was veryyyyyyy nice. Like superrrrrrrrr. I was asking him about T-Shirts and stuff, and he looked at my school badge and said in Mandarin,"You're from Dunman High right? Our boss treats DHS very well!" and he led me to this photo, at the display window which had a group of Dunmanians with ex-VP Mr Low. He was looking at my designs and he asked,"Are you in arts?" and I was like,"Uh no." And he told me my drawings were nice. That meant a lot to me, because he was just a mere stranger that I met for just a few minutes and I knew that the remark he made was definitely from his heart because sometimes you're not sure if friends give an honest opinion. I swear things were done so swiftly that even though I boarded Bus 158 at 2.15, I managed to head for Tampines MRT and board the train home at 3! BAHAHA, I'm so happy :D I thought he was a flower but I found out he's a weed.
Disorder/RatingParanoid: Low Schizoid: Low Schizotypal: Low Antisocial: Low Borderline: Low Histrionic: Low Narcissistic: Low Avoidant: Low Dependent: Low Obsessive-Compulsive: Low Take the Personality Disorder Test. Y'know, sometimes when you see pretty things, you can't help but feel bimbotic.  Hello Kitty Toaster  Hello Kitty Paper Shredder  Hello Kitty Contact Lens Case (I've got the Keroppi one! Cuteness :D)  Hello Kitty Bottle  Hello Kitty Wallet  Hello Kitty Bag  Hello Kitty Stationery Set  Hello Kitty Guitar Picks  Hello Kitty Camera   Hello Kitty Ipod Dock  Hello Kitty ATM (Wlao I want. So chio! I will be so motivated to save money!)  Hello Kitty DVD player  Hello Kitty Keyboard (I've been wanting this forever but I'm using a laptop. Quite dumb to have one) Well, but this is better :D :D :D  Keroppi Sweater  Gosh, Keroppi is absolute cuteness. Images from Sanrio. Bye, am coughing endlessly. It's impossible to die from embarrassment. It's just a phase you're going through.
You've never loved, and not really sure what the world actually means. And you're scared to fall in love. I thought so too. I guess it's true. It's such a bloody busy week. T-SHIRTS! BADGES! At least I know I'm doing something, which is good :D I can't dance for nuts, yo. During the jazz (is it?) item, I was totally dizzy and unable to do it. I guess I suck at it, badly. Bla.  I saw this while looking through my photos. Wtf? I swear I became dumber. I SIGNED MY OWN GIRO FORM!!!! (Justin too) F, there's this irritating screeching sound in my room. And I don't know where it's from!!! Love, save the empty, and save me.
Mama didn't teach me Little boys don't know how to treat little girls Daddy didn't show me Face down, on top of your bed Oh why did I give it up to you? Is this how I shoot myself up high, Just high enough to get through? Again, the false affection Again, we break down inside Love save the empty Love save the empty, and save me Sad boy, you stare up at the sky When no one's looking back at you You wear your every last disguise You're flying, then you fall through Again, the false attention Again, you're breaking inside Love save the empty Love save the empty, save me Love save the empty Love save the empty Stars feel like knives, They tell us why we're fighting. Storm, wait outside Oh, love, hold us together Love, save the empty Love, save the empty Love, save the empty Love, save the empty, and save me And save me You've got to read today's Straits Times Life! Section, Pulse 9, then it talks about kissing. Major Histocompatibility Complex (MHC) Totally makes sense. I think I'm gonna get sore throat and a dry cough soon. It's almost impossible not to get it because Momo, Bro, Piano teacher and Justin are all coughing away. So the chances of me getting it is SOOOOOO high. I've armed myself with a box of Strepsils and a bottle of water. /edit. I'm deleting my msn contacts. I've deleted 110 currently, and I'm only halfway through!! Still go so many more to delete. Most of the contacts I deleted are blogskinners, random guys/angmohs that added me, and a number of Huiens, Huimins, Huitings etc. Gosh. Ok deleted a total of 168 contacts. Gosh. I wish I could delete until I had only 10+ contacts left. (DELETED SOME MORE :D WOOHOO) What's Your Sex and the City Style? You're Carrie!  You're fashion forward with a hint of sass. Your quirkiness brings out your unique sense of style. Though you sometimes reject change in your personal life, when it comes to fashion you're always willing to try something new. It's clear: You live for fashion! Your favorite designers are Philip Lim, Jenni Kayne, Matthew Williamson, Heatherette, Rosa Cha, Elie Saab and Jean Paul Gaultier.That's so me, I guess? I swear I'm getting so bimbotic.      Wtf, chio to the max I swear. The first phone is damnnnnnnn chio. The second phone is just ok. Bryan: No, you ain't influential. It's just that Angela's quite slow (Sorry Angela, but I said this based on the flow-er thing -_-) But I think I'll be alright.
And I am all alone But I don’t really care at all Not answering my phone All the games you played The promises you made Couldn’t finish what you started Only darkness still remains Lost sight Couldn’t see When it was you and me Blow the candles out Looks like a solo tonight I’m beginning to see the light Blow the candles out Looks like a solo tonight But I think I’ll be alright Been black and blue before There’s no need to explain I am not the jaded kind Playback’s such a waste You’re invisible Invisible to me My wish is coming true Erase the memory of your face Lost sight Couldn’t see When it was you and me Blow the candles out Looks like a solo tonight I’m beginning to see the light Blow the candles out Looks like a solo tonight But I think I’ll be alright One day You will wake up With nothing but “you’re sorrys” And someday You will get back Everything you gave me Blow the candles out Looks like a solo tonight I’m beginning to see the light Blow the candles out Looks like a solo tonight But I think I’ll be alright Serena has a friend request.  69. I can only talk about certain stuff, with certain people. Apparently. Yes. How weird. But that's a cold hard fact I guess. Blow the candles out Looks like a solo tonight I'm beginning to see the light Blow the candles out Looks like a solo tonight But I think I'll be alright I will be alright. I need help with EDS Camp Theme! LOLOL help. Why is the HOP so useless ah! Pictures Of Us? Homecoming? Ultraviolet? Arizona? Yes, all my themes are thought based on songs (Y) Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?
Dare: HELLO. MY NEH IS DAMN BIG RIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT?Yea, everyone was like,"Yah yah yah. Damn damn big. Like watermelon." LOL. Stupid dare. But nevermind, it s'okay. I thought Eunice's dare was so cute lor! I would totally have done that :D I never want to see you unhappy, I thought you'd want the same for me. I wonder what the hell is wrong with me. Why am I going back to square one again? Why d'you have to keep creating non-existent illusions? Why bother, I really wonder. Why bring me up so high and make me fall so much. Once bitten, twice shy. I wonder how many times have I been through this. Once bitten and twice shy, I keep my distance but you still catch my eye. I don't know why I keep getting fooled again. Now I know what a fool I've been, But if you kissed me now, I know you'd fool me again. I wish I could smell you the way Mia smells Michael. And I know you don't smell like a dry-cleaning fluid. You smell like soap. Yes. Ok what on earth is wrong with me. Goodbye, my hopeless dream.
Bro and I never fail to be so lame...ߣØØÐ݃RèÃkŽ®™ says:  Click to enlarge. How can anyone read that font without having to squint their eyes? Zzz. Btw, I went to his room to look at that emoticon, which is some bunny, with the ass tingling and there's a sign saying 'I'm Dead'. No, I don't actually die when I don't do my homework. At most, a certain teacher will say,"It's always the same few people doing the homework. Look, it's not me going for the exams y'know. You guys are so arrogant blablablabla....." And I'm doing homework in school tomorrow ok!!! First thing in the morning. I need to go catch up on sleep now :D But darling you won't be there.
I'm very tempted to post 'Sealed With A Kiss', it's just so. Nice.My thighs are aching like crap, and I'm walking like a penguin. I think I'm very funny, don't you think so too? Hahahaha. I'm damn amused by something I said -_- Seah Du4 Zi3. Translate it into Chinese. RETARDEDDDD. Whatever, overloaded with homework. /edit. I just realised my Pokeball got this penguin/tortoise looking Pokemon!! But I don't know what Pokemon is that leh! I wanna collect somemore! I want the chick chick one!! Yes yes, people please buy Mac's Happy Meal and give me your balls!!! :D :D I just realise how much I can relate to Mia. I wish some guy would just tell me to quit sniffing him. Hahaha. MHC!!!!! Bloody hell. While they might be perfect to everyone else, they just aren't right for you. Serena: What's with the random dress up as porn star thingy -.- Pipettes are so nice :D Hoho, some people says they sound like The Ting Tings. No way. Your kisses are wasted on me.
'Your Kisses Are Wasted On Me' by The Pipettes is awesome. And please, go watch 'Pull Shapes' video, because I am in love with the dance (Not the naked lady spinning around with boobs flying everywhere)I'm feeling horrendously guilty after creating a tiny bloodshed in class, not on purpose. I'm just pretty violent. I actually passed 2.4km run, even though I haven't been running for months. 2.4km run makes me walk like a non-virgin. But hey, I'm still a unicorn. But I won't be the last unicorn on earth. Fret not. I read PD until I slept!! (I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!) and I woke up with a splitting headache, and fell back into slumber again. Felt better after munching on donuts. So long, my luckless romance.
You fingertips against my skin The palm trees swaying in the wind Images You sang me spanish lullabies The sweetest sadness in your eyes Clever trick I never want to see you unhappy I thought you'd want the same for me Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you Can't you just let me be? So long, my luckless romance My back is turned on you I should've known you'd bring me heartache Almost lovers always do We walked along a crowded street You took my hand and danced with me Images And when you left you kissed my lips You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no I never want to see you unhappy I thought you'd want the same for me Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you Can't you just let me be? So long, my luckless romance My back is turned on you I should've known you'd bring me heartache Almost lovers always do I cannot go to the ocean I cannot drive the streets at night I cannot wake up in the morning Without you on my mind So you're gone and I'm haunted And I bet you are just fine Did I make it that easy for you To walk right in and out of my life? Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you Can't you just let me be? So long, my luckless romance My back is turned on you I should've known you'd bring me heartache Almost lovers always do Heard that 'Almost Lover' might just be in New Moon (Movie). My 'passion' (if there even was any in the first place) for Twilight is seriously zero now. I'm not even done with Twilight -_- And I'm happily reading Princess Diaries (I know very slow la! I don't have time ok!!!!) and I have Ransom My Heart!! And omg, there's still Size 14 Is Not Fat Either (Which is due on 04 March). I've got to abandon PD and RMH for the moment and start on Size 14 (Which is quite impossible). I should finish PD though!!! Chem Test tomorrow, am gonna die a horrible death. SOLUTION. SOLUTION. SOLUTION!!!!! What the hell's wrong with you?
You told me they were wrong And I stood up for you 'Cause I believed you were the one You had all the chances in the world To let me know the truth What the hell's wrong with you? Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even care what I'm going through? Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me You're right there but it's like you never knew me Do you even know how much it hurt, That you gave up on me to be with her? Revenge is sweeter than you ever were I'm so mad at you right now I can't even find the words And you're on the way down I can't wait to see you burn You try to make me hate that girl When I should be hating you What the hell's wrong with you? Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even care what I'm going through? Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me You're right there but it's like you never knew me Do you even know how much it hurt, That you gave up on me to be with her? Revenge is sweeter than you ever were (Than you ever were) Revenge is sweeter than you ever were Nothing can save you now that it's over I guess that you'll find out when you're no one Don't say you're sorry now 'cause I just don't care Nothing can save you now, nothing Nothing can save you now, nothing Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even care what I'm going through? You're eyes stare and they're staring right through me You're right there but it's like you never knew me Do you even know how much it hurt, That you gave up on me to be with her? Revenge is sweeter than you ever were (Than you ever were) Revenge is sweeter than you ever were Oh happy belated Valentines' Day. Couldn't really be bothered like wishing people because how many people actually really needed that (It isn't like Christmas or New Year -.-) Went to Serena's house to do project today. Major loads of fun. Shan't explain in detail.  Don't ask me what's with this. LOL. I can't be shu nv. That's that. (Tofu is so cute! :D)  It's not supposed to be unglam, yo. Zzz. It was supposed to be cool or something. I just can't portray that feeling. (It's damn nice to squat on heels, especially when they're like 3inches. OMGOSH. I love heels)   Shades. (I swear playing with the hair curler was so fun -_- Even though I burnt my hand. Shoosh, I know my hair doesn't look curled, it looks wavy like normal but it looked quite nice actually, then it got screwed up as the day went on) I'm so disgusted by a certain someone that I don't even wanna post his picture here. There's just nothing good about him to redeem himself. Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even care what I'm going through? Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me You're right there but it's like you never knew me Do you even know how much it hurt, That you gave up on me to be with her? Revenge is sweeter than you ever were I realised there are certain oldies that I love alot. Even though they're really slow. Tell Laura, I love her~ Yokeming: Haha, thanks. Bryn: Yo, grandma might be old but not fogey yet. Angela: Omg -_- You are so weird and funny at the same time. Happy (belated) Vday too! Yet, today, my love has flown away.
It's gonna be Valentine's Day in a few hours time. I know, exciting right, especially for those lovey-dovey couples out there. It's just so sweet and heartening seeing couples getting pretty hyped up about it (Even though, people say when you're in love, everyday is Vday).I know I'm a lousy friend, but I suck at buying gifts. Like, everyone gets chocolates, sweets, and stuff. And I'm just this lousy present buyer (I swear, I buy the lousiest gifts ever). Sidetrack a little, y'know the best gift I've ever gave anyone was Rooney's Calling The World for Huiying (and soon the drumsticks will be the second best gift I'll be giving anyone and that lucky person, is still Huiying :D) And the best gifts I've received, was the sparkler and matchsticks from Vanessa Phang, Huien's Definite Christmas Playlist from Huiying and It's F, Bitch notepad from Deborah. Don't belittle them. They are like so meaningful that they make the best gifts ever. It's not that the gifts others gave me aren't good, I love them just as much but those gifts just meant a lot to me. So thank you guys for being so sweet, I'm sorry I've done nothing. But y'know, Vday/Fday, is just pretty overrated. I don't know how to explain it but yea, I know what I mean. Thanks Serena for your lovely card and sweet poem :) You're the best bisexual mate ever (Well, you're the only one :D HAHAHA) Thanks Ruixin for your beautiful sunflower (My favourite flower ever!) and pouch with sequins and beads painstakingly sewn on and there's folded paper hearts in it as well! I wonder why you're so talented in every aspect. Thanks Deborah for your card and y'know, you're just so sweet! Cute stickers are just so lovable :D! Thanks Janson for your sweet, well you bought sweets even though you were feeling unwell yesterday. Thanks Double Clique for the chocolate! It reminds me of last year when C.H.A.T gave chocolates too, it's just so sweet :) Thanks Angela for your little note :D Did you write something extra on someone else's paper hmmmm? :O Thanks Vanessa, for your handmade cookies, Toblerone and stuff. I really wish that you have the best time of your life tonight :D Thanks Wenting, for your sweet little note and Cadbury chocolate. It's great knowing you for 3 years plus. It's just so amazing how time passes so quickly. Thanks HweeChien for your Kinder Bueno. Talking to you is really fun and I really love Comm Meetings :D Thanks Natalia, for your colourful lollipop. And talking to you about prom, is just so fun. Hahaha :D Thanks Jialing, for your note and Toblerone! I never got around to talk much to you but I guess we did talk a little today :D Thanks Casandra, for you lollipop. I really love you juniors, it's just so weird, to actually know I've been a senior for quite a few years. So weird, somehow ._. (I'm sorry if I've missed out everyone) Thanks to Sumei, Siyin, 4F and many many other people for making this Friday the 13th so special. No bad luck whatsoever! And it's also my register number. I guess I'm really in love with Number 13. It means, forever (一生). Well, I never got around to say certain things this year but I'm sure I will live my life better. More thanks to Sumei, who made me feel much better during dance. It's like I really can open up to you, and it's just so sweeeeet. Awwwww :D And Siyin, your tweety bird is so cute. HAHAHA. Sorry, I think you should name Carebear, Tweety :D Bye for now. Off to do important stuff. Can't wait to finish up Princess Diaries 10 and start on Size 14 Is Not Fat, even though I'm really tempted to read Ransom My Heart. But it's so porno! It is not normal, what is normal?
Lipstick lesbians.I wonder how many Eugene Gans are there in this world. Justin shouldn't exist, or he should be a girl. I should consider skipping dinner every Thursday because I don't feel hungry at all. I look forward to Vday. I shouldn't heed Justin's advice because I will only get my heart broken before Vday, or on the day itself. I so need to be self-actualised. Michael Moscovitz is so hot. I'm starting to get the Serena's old-man-fetish syndrome. I just saw a working-class man, who reminds me of Jiang Zhi Shu (Yes with that small belly), and I'm pretty swept off my feet. I'm freaking out and it hardly is normal. I shall go have dinner now. Time: 20:51 hours. I think I will grow fat. I can breathe without you, dear.
Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and randomly tag 10 people (including me). Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.Have fun! Tagged by: Yeling 1. What is your name: Huien 2. A four Letter Word: Home 3. A boy's Name: Harry 4. A girl's Name: Huiying 5. An occupation: Hacker 6. A color: Hot pink (Omg, please don't Google 'Harlequin' in images, because I got freaked out) 7. Something you wear: Hat 8. A food: Hamburger 9. Something found in the bathroom: Hand towel 10. A place: Heaven 11. A reason for being late: HAHAHAHA 12. Something you shout: Huh!?! 13. A movie title: High School Musical 3 Senior Year 14. Something you drink: Honeydew Milkshake 15. A musical group: Hey Monday 16. An animal: Horse 17. A street name: Happy Avenue West (HAHAHA) 18. A type of car: Honda 19. Something scary: Hannah Montana 20. Ice cream flavor: Half-baked (Ben&Jerry's) The 10 people are, Yeling Huiying Deborah Ruixin Serena Siyin Maureen Vanessa Sumei ________ (If you feel like doing, fill your name in that blank!) I'm looking forward to Vday because I'm gonna have the time of my life, doing something really different on Vday. No more rotting at home because it's gonna be PW and P day :D You're paralyzing me.
Every time you messed with my head All the things you did and you said See my scars spell out your name and...you're paralyzing me. Every time you left me behind All these tears are no longer mine Because you took it all away and...you're paralyzing me. Memories they fall apart whenever you're inside my head. Take my tears they say a lot since you're the one who put them there When I needed you the most you were, nowhere to be found. But I still hung on just hoping for my love to come around. Every time you messed with my head All the things you did and you said See my scars spell out your name and...you're paralyzing me. Every time you left me behind All these tears are no longer mine because you took it all away and...you're paralyzing me. I miss those times when things were simple and your heart was mine I just don't understand how you could threw it all away When I needed you the most you were, nowhere to be found But I still hung on just hoping for my love to come around. Every time you messed with my head All the things you did and you said See my scars spell out your name and...you're paralyzing me. Every time you left me behind All these tears are no longer mine Because you took it all away and...you're paralyzing me. Look up at the sky it's a bird, it's a plane Nah it's just me again cryin' in the rain I can't figure out why I feel so ashamed You pushed me so hard that I feel so insane Every time I cried you ain't wiped my eyes Whenever I was scared you weren't by my side The only thing it did was it made me wise So I guess it's all good cause it kept me alive When I needed you the most you were, nowhere to be found But I still hung on just hoping for my love to come around. Every time you messed with my head All the things you did and you said See my scars spell out your name and...you're paralyzing me. Every time you left me behind All these tears are no longer mine Because you took it all away and...you're paralyzing me. I know people might think that I'm seeking for attention by emoing on my blog, publicly. But whatever, I can't be bothered. It's like, I don't even like emoing, that's just not me (But there are times whereby you just break down). I don't need sympathy, that's for sure. And as expected, I failed my first Geog test. Not as bad as I expected. But still, not very good. I still feel like a drug addict. That sucks. But I can't help it. Whatever it is, I'm gonna snap out of this whole thing because as Xinwei said,"It's not worth my time." Yes, totally. Seeing Huiying just makes me happy, being with Bitches makes me happy too, and I'm glad to have them. I'm glad Serena made the right choice :D (HOHOHO, I KNOW I'M EVIL BUT HE SUCKS!!!!! ASSHOLE.) HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIYING!!!! :D BEN ROMANS! :D ERIC DILL! :D Woohoo, love all of them :) 10 February is a nice day. I managed to borrow Size 14 Isn't Fat Either! Still no sight of Ninth Key and Angus Thongs. I swear buying books are starting to become my favourite hobby (I HAVE TO GET THE MEDIATOR SERIES!!!!). P.S. I may seem insensitive at times but y'know what, I don't really think before I speak which is why I tend to hurt people without realising it. I don't like that feeling of hurting people because it sucks to get hurt. Everyone watch me as I descend into a feeling that's overwhelming me.
"I can't make anyone fall in love with me. I gotta just do what I do..." - Ben Romans Life, was never a bed of roses. And it was all thorns for me. Love, was something that never belonged to me, so I shan't ask for it anymore. Friends, were always there for me, and I thank them for that. School, will somehow always be a place that I dread, since I don't excel in anything except for Lifeskills. I lost many things. A friend. You never seem to know that. And I don't want to lose another friend anymore. Yes, you, if you know who you are, darling (You made me cry so badly, I've never cried so much for a girl before. I'm not trying to make you feel bad or anything, my emotions just overwhelmed me) Year of Ox, year filled with bullshit. I tried so hard for many things, and what do I get, nothing at all? I took a chance at love, and get treated like a joke. I studied but reaped no results. And it boils down to one question,"What am I working so hard for?" All of a sudden, I don't recognise who I am anymore. Where did the retarded bubbly person went to? Where did the person who made everything sound bad went to? Where did the super optimistic about everything in life person went to? Where did the person who could laugh about everything went to? I feel so fake. I tell myself I'm so fake. Why do I have to pretend like everything's fine when I know perfectly well everything's not. Because I'm so fake, face it. Everything just came crashing down this year. Last year, was like a beautiful dream and finally it's turning into a nightmare, and I'll have to wake up from it. I'm won't be surprised if I actually came down with depression. Now I will tell you what I've done for you - 50 thousand tears I've cried. Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you - And you still won't hear me. Don't want your hand this time - I'll save myself. Maybe I'll wake up for once Not tormented daily defeated by you Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom I'm dying again Did you take off while I was gone?
"I can do shuffling with my fingers." By yours truly. Epic. I hate the way I write. And I can see my Year 4 life is obviously in a very bad shape. It doesn't really help y'know, when you failed all your FIRST tests at the start of the year. And I bloody cried because I was just so overwhelmed by Geog test. Like it's a test that I studied for and put much effort in, and I came out, being so confused and I tell you, that sucks. All it tells me is, I'm studying for nothing. But whatever, I'll continue trying. At least, Chemistry homework was quite, comforting. 23/35. Something that I passed. I feel so stressed which probably resulted in my period coming early. (Whatever la, shy what. Every month also come) Everything just hits like a ton of bricks. I can't be a pessimist. That's just not me. I like being happy but why am I not so happy now. Some things, just seem so hard to do. I really don't feel like approaching you and talk to you now. I don't know when the right time is. But all I know is that I feel sucky. I keep having doubts about what's really going on, even though the cold hard truth is right before my eyes. I don't know why I keep trusting you over and over again when you just shatter my confidence in you so easily. I never knew human trust and friendship could be betrayed so easily. So this is how much our friendship worth. To be blocked without consideration. I don't know why I should feel sad. But my heart goes out to Desirae. It sucks ok. You morons out there should know what's the difference between being nice, and being misleading. Stop flattering like there's no tomorrow, and act all innocent when something happens. You think you guys know so much about us girls? Well, y'know what? Y'all just think with your farting dicks. I will fight for my truth. I should stand up after falling. Even if it's falling a thousand miles for you. And I need to lose excess fats too. They should all be gone by SYF!!!!! OMGOMGOMG, THE HORROR. (I should stop being so superficial and talk about losing weight. But seriously, I think that takes away stress) I need to wake up from this state of mind.
Apparently I tried looking for my baby photos and photos from Sec 1 to 3 or something and I hardly have any photos in Sec 1 & 2!! And most of my memories are like from EDS -_- I only took alot more photos this year, because there are people with cameras.Thanks Yongquan for my baby photos. Hahahaha, omg, I look damn retarded. .jpg) .jpg) Serena, now you know my pissed off look. HAHAHA.  Wtf, Vincent said I look like an ABC Baby Boy. Where got like boy!!! I know I look Caucasian as a baby, but BOY!!! I know my Bro is damn cute. DAMN HANDSOME RIGHT :D (I wonder what happened...)  RETARDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA, OK I FEEL SO LAUGHY. EDS Comm never fails to make me retarded and happy all day long :) Sorry I can't take it, why did you fake it?
My violent tendencies are back. LOL. (And the curse is back again. HAHAHA)Stupid Justin lah. Orh bee good. I hope you come online and see this. (Since you need to go to the class blog) Hahaha, he kept staring (more like glaring angrily), prolly wanna scare me or something, then I buaytahan, kept laughing like siao, then can't stop, so I punched him in his face (his right jaw). (I'm sorry, neh ._.) Last time when Sweeyan sat in front of me in P3, he got punched in his head by me. Then P4, Kelvin sat beside me and got punched in the nose. The only 2 lucky guys were Junrong and Terence. Both never get hit by me. LOLOL. Ok, got to go study for Geog (and Physics x_x)! I feel intelligent 8-)!! /edit Tsk, 2 bitches posted about their height and weight measurement, so I must say something also. Height still the same (NEVERMIND, WILL GROW SOMEMORE!) and I lost weight. And it's like, is that even possible? The last time I took was before Level Camp, and I was like 54kg. Then in Malaysia, I ate a lot (Our class guys ordered extra food), in Korea, I ate a lot of meat. Then there's June hols and EOY Hols and CNY! This CNY I ate the most goodies, can't see how I manage to lose weight, without even trying to. Not to mention all the bingeing. I think they see wrongly lor. I thought I saw myself near 60kg or something (which is super scary). But nevermind, I'm happy with what they recorded down. I hope it's for real. Yes, I'm that superficial. You got a problem with it? Ruixin: Haha it's this Facebook thing. Deborah: Yes, everyone should listen to JJ and appreciate him! I'm like listening to his albums today :D WOOHOO. Now I will tell you what I've done for you, fifty thousand tears I've cried.
What Does My Birthday Mean? You are a warrior. No obstacle can stop you from reaching your goal. You always keep yourself busy. This quality plus your responsibility will eventually bring you success. Your Love, You adore your partner as the number one priority. You value your love one more than yourself. Your love is the greatest of all and you have potential to get married young. I never knew I was Mulan. Maybe I am quite responsible (:D) And if my love is the greatest of all, thanks, but nobody will realise that. And maybe I'll get married young, if I even get a boyfriend at all. I think I scratched my eyeball. Have to make a rush to the library for Ninth Key and It's OK, I'm wearing really big knickers!!!! Omg, and I still haven't got the suppliers' numbers yet, after talking about it from last year till now. And it's not easy. Screw me. 原来我撑着撑到麻了。
You're just another part of me And it's like breaking up with Yongquan again, just that it's ten times worse. And probably even more. And I'm taking all your memories off the shelf, and I don't need you or anybody else. I tend to think too much when I'm alone. I thought I was ok and I realised I wasn't. Merde. P.S. I should stop changing my blog song but I can't help it. I need songs that describe my feelings. Spamming 'My Happiness' only makes me cry like fuck even more. |
