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Hello, I'm Huien. Member of It's F, Bitch, with the title of Lucky Cute Bitch. |
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Everyone watch me as I descend into a feeling that's overwhelming me.
"I can't make anyone fall in love with me. I gotta just do what I do..." - Ben Romans Life, was never a bed of roses. And it was all thorns for me. Love, was something that never belonged to me, so I shan't ask for it anymore. Friends, were always there for me, and I thank them for that. School, will somehow always be a place that I dread, since I don't excel in anything except for Lifeskills. I lost many things. A friend. You never seem to know that. And I don't want to lose another friend anymore. Yes, you, if you know who you are, darling (You made me cry so badly, I've never cried so much for a girl before. I'm not trying to make you feel bad or anything, my emotions just overwhelmed me) Year of Ox, year filled with bullshit. I tried so hard for many things, and what do I get, nothing at all? I took a chance at love, and get treated like a joke. I studied but reaped no results. And it boils down to one question,"What am I working so hard for?" All of a sudden, I don't recognise who I am anymore. Where did the retarded bubbly person went to? Where did the person who made everything sound bad went to? Where did the super optimistic about everything in life person went to? Where did the person who could laugh about everything went to? I feel so fake. I tell myself I'm so fake. Why do I have to pretend like everything's fine when I know perfectly well everything's not. Because I'm so fake, face it. Everything just came crashing down this year. Last year, was like a beautiful dream and finally it's turning into a nightmare, and I'll have to wake up from it. I'm won't be surprised if I actually came down with depression. Now I will tell you what I've done for you - 50 thousand tears I've cried. Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you - And you still won't hear me. Don't want your hand this time - I'll save myself. Maybe I'll wake up for once Not tormented daily defeated by you Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom I'm dying again |
