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But you weren't worth the view, I gotta hit the brakes.
그렇게만 날 쳐다보면 부끄럽잖아 I know where my ulcer is now. Am trying to numb it or rather get used to the pain because it's located in a horrible position. I had well, a nightmare. Gosh. Do dreams reflect your innermost thoughts or something? Do they show what really is going on in your mind, or rather heart? I don't know how I'm supposed to feel right now. If my dream was a reflect of my innermost feelings, then I know pretty much what my heart wants. I thought I was able to forget certain things and move on with life but I only came to realise that I was probably trying to convince myself. So all this while, I've been trying to give up, and slowly thinking that I was over certain things, have just been unreal. I must have done something good to meet you I want a raisin, or maybe a date. With you. 좋아한대두, 너무도 사랑한대두 정말야 매일 너와 사랑하고 싶어 He's a dandelion, he looks like everything I need.
Gosh, horrible horrible.I think I've an ulcer somewhere in my mouth. Bought makeup :D It's fun. Like splatting makeup over Sinyee, Vanessa and Siyin :D (Vanessa has this glitter fetish of some sort -_-) Sinyee kept poking my butt and grabbing my nehneh (!?!?!) And Sinyee is so stupid!!!! HAHAHAHA! (Stupid/Sucky/Shitty/Short Sinyee. But to be nice, Sunshine/Sweet/Sexy/Smiley/Skinny Sinyee. OMGOMGOMG. S is such an interesting letter) Y'know she's so clumsy! She took the watermelon sweet, and all of them flew out onto her. HAHAHAHA. And She dropped her plastic bag on the floor. But she's just so cute and lovable anyway :D :D SYF is approaching. I don't feel jittery. But I feel pretty much excited because this is the dance, that we want to show others we can do it. Imagine, in the year 1999, people who were 13 to 16 then, are 23 to 26 now, they scored a gold!!! And then in the subsequent years, we got bronzesilverbronzesilverbronzesilverbronzebronzebronze (Anyhow write one), and then in the year 2009, EDS DANCE GETS A GOLD!!!!!!! It's like seeing your favourite soccer team scoring and you shout GOAL!!!!!!!!!!! Ok whatever, ignore me. I suck at storytelling but you get my point. I'm typing this in darkness now. I'm saving the earth :) :) :) (I don't see 1 hour helps seriously. They should make it like 10 hours or something, so I can go and sleep now) I'm happppppy~ Snape, Snape, Severus Snape. Snape, Snape, Severus Snape. Dumbledore. Snape, Severus Snape. Dumbledore. Snape, Severus Snape. Dumbledore. Ron. Snape. Ron. Snape. Ron Weasley. Dumbledore. Snape. Ron. Snape. Ron. Snape. Ron Weasley. Dumbledore. Hermoine. Ron. Snape. Ron. Snape. Hermoine. Ron Weasley. Dumbledore. Harry Potter. Snape. Harry Potter. Ron. Dumbledore. Harry Potter. Snape. Harry. Snape. Harry. Snape. Harry. Dumbledore! Voldermort, Voldermort. OK WHATEVER IGNORE ME. HAHAHAHAHA. (Shakes head super quickly) HARRY POTTER HARRY POTTER HARRY POTTER HARRY POTTER!! P.S. Pardon me if I spelt any name(s) wrongly because I've never read Harry Potter. Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh.
Have been having tummy cramps since Tuesday till today. Now, I'm feeling more horrible than ever as my tummy is aching like crap :(Rehearsal at UCC was good. At least it was so much more productive than what we did 2 years ago. I'm feeling the vibe, the stress, the nervousness. I'm sure I wouldn't regret because I pretty much gave my all for this dance. My head was stuck with a total of 19 pins (Bobby to U), just 1 short of 20. I swear I'm in love with U-pins. I was like randomly tying a bun just now, with no rubber band at all, and started sticking the pins into my head and my bun just stayed there nicely. OMG. Are they genius or what? :D Thanks Big Vanessa for what you've done today. Every year, you've never fail to come watch us and give us pointers for SYF/EDS Night. It's just so weird. Seeing you, from being our first Dancehead (Well, when we first joined), till now, our great-great-grand dancehead. It's just awesome. I still remember how you skipped school just to help us out for SYF 2 years ago. You're probably the most amazing dancehead ever. Well, Tzelin, Sophia and Vanessa are all awesome too! :D (I hope nehneh is safely home right now) It's either we make it or break it. I really want a gold. You never know how much it means to you till it's your last year, and you feel like you wanna give whatever you have. The same goes for EDS Night. Praying for the best health and safety for everyone. If our Drama people lose their voices, Dancers break an arm or leg (Literally), EDS Night = GG. It's been 6 months. I should've seen it coming but I guess I'm not the only fool. Should I waste my time and let you lead me on? Waiting for the day when I'm complete, without you. Making sure there's nothing showing on the outside, Something's dying on the inside, I'm still broken but I'm free. It's sad but it's true how society says her life is already over.
During Chem practical Flipping through JJ's Vincent Ng's book to have a sexy body. I keep thinking that bra pads that I just cut out from the SYF costume are bowls -.- 'Cause you wrote my name across my hand.
Changing seating arrangement tomorrow. My stomach is still queasy. I ate a bag of potato chips. I want to sleep. But then again, it doesn't end.
Watch thisHahaha, why is my junior so retardedly cute :D :D :D (Stupid Sinyee!!! HAHAHAHA, DON'T BE SO CUTE. I WILL BE CUTER THAN YOU. I PWN YOU :D MWAHAHAHA. YOU CAN TAKE MY CUTE POSITION ONCE I LEAVE EDS! LOLOL :D) And it's just you that can't understand my posts. Mwahahaha (I'm so evil :D :D Hoho. Take picture with me one day!!! Random much :D) Me: My first impression of you was you got the qian bian look. (Cos she looked so fierce in white specs) Sinyee: My first impression of you was you are very bu shuang. Me: Ya ya!! I know that! LOL. Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals. Oh, my toe isn't bugging me anymore. I hope it will never bug me again :D My stomach was pretty much queasy today. It kept acting up every hour, and I would be cringing like crap, because it felt so horrible. EDS people, go check the EDS Blog for the checklist for SYF Rehearsal this Friday :D I hope I'll be :D for a long while. I don't wanna be D: I'm sorry to my fellow 19 people who joined my petition in trying to get the PW Report extended. You guys were great anyway, to even be part of it :D Off to do my Maths Assignment. P.S. Deborah's half-jap :) I don't like who I've become.
Everyday I sit here waiting Everyday just seems so long And now I've had enough of all the hating Do we even care, it's so unfair Any day it'll all be over Everyday there's nothing new And now I just try to find some hope To try and hold onto But it starts again It'll never end I'm heavily broken And I don't know what to do Can't you see that I'm choking And I can't even move When there's nothing left to say What can you do I'm heavily broken And there's nothing I can do Almost giving up on trying Almost heading for a fall And now my mind is screaming out I've gotta keep on fighting But then again It doesn't end I'm heavily broken And I don't know what to do Can't you see that I'm choking And I can't even move When there's nothing left to say What can you do? I'm heavily broken And there's nothing I can do Feels like I'm drowning I'm screaming for air (Screaming for air) Louder I'm crying And you don't even care I'm heavily broken And I don't know what to do Can't you see that I'm choking And I can't even move (What can I do) When there's nothing left to say What can you do I'm heavily broken I'm heavily broken And I don't know what to do Can't you see that I'm choking And I can't even move When there's nothing left to say What can you do I'm heavily broken I'm heavily broken I'm heavily broken Toe hurts like bloody hell. I don't know what's wrong with it. It hurts each time after I dance. Don't even know if it's some nail growing underneath. I was trying to dig under my nail and lift it up and clip away the side or something, doesn't work somehow. I feel like fool. It's so obvious, yet I'm still trying to convince myself. Who am I kidding? I thought I could resist you I thought that I was strong Somehow you were different from what I've known I didn't see you coming You took me by surprise and You stole my heart before I could say no But I found it so entertaining, messing around with your head.
Ice - The flyer with bright blue lights. 2 people, 4 others, , 1 extra. says: *lol *eh *wats with all the *er Huien! sketchoflove.bs says: *WHAT Ice - The flyer with bright blue lights. 2 people, 4 others, , 1 extra. says: *er *survey Huien! sketchoflove.bs says: *Oh *All of them trying to have findings to back up what they want to say? *Like they can say *Survey findings over a number of 500 people, taken from a school population of 2200 people have shown that *99% didn't know the what campaign has become ____ campaign *60% said that the campaign isn't effective as there's not much publicity on it *So in my POV, the ______- campaign wasn't a successful one as the message it wanted to bring out wasn't brought across to the people *What I suggest to do is that, bigger and more colourful posters, with cute cartoons, should be done as it can attract both the young and old attention as it would be a fresh new idea *Yada yada yada Ice - The flyer with bright blue lights. 2 people, 4 others, , 1 extra. says: *oh *LAME *LOL Huien! sketchoflove.bs says: *OMG did i sound impressive *Because I just typed that out like without thinking -.- Ice - The flyer with bright blue lights. 2 people, 4 others, , 1 extra. says: *lol *do u have *slayers? Huien! sketchoflove.bs says: *No *I'M NOT GOING TO PLAY THAT *DON'T SO RANDOM *BACK TO LA *GO WORK ON IT!!! Ice - The flyer with bright blue lights. 2 people, 4 others, , 1 extra. says: *JOIN ME Huien! sketchoflove.bs says: *NO Ice - The flyer with bright blue lights. 2 people, 4 others, , 1 extra. says: *nvm next tiem awsk you :D Huien! sketchoflove.bs says: *My answer will still be NO *Those kind of games so lame. Ice - The flyer with bright blue lights. 2 people, 4 others, , 1 extra. says: *ps went to close door for me bro Huien! sketchoflove.bs says: *-.- Ice - The flyer with bright blue lights. 2 people, 4 others, , 1 extra. says: *eh *can just join and do nth :S Huien! sketchoflove.bs says: *NO -.- Ice - The flyer with bright blue lights. 2 people, 4 others, , 1 extra. says: *walao :( Back to PW. Omg, it's so effed up. I swear. GRRRRR. I love chewing on gummies :D It's apparent it's all over.
Positive feedback about camp just made me realise how much everything was worth it. The many hours we put in, the many calories we gained (We ate Macdonalds/KFC almost every time we discussed it), the many happy smiles we got, I guess that just meant a lot.And then juniors telling me how much they like the Camp T-shirt, even though it was just a plain white shirt, with black printings. Somehow, sleeping late, bathing at an ungodly hour, pulling my hair, crying a thousand tears, staying up to do the Camp Booklet till 2 even though there was school the next day, just makes everything so worth it. And I've got to say that, I'm in deep shit now because I've not started on PW, and other stuff. And it's almost Sunday. Well, went to Yio Chu Kang for Sonja's Baby Shower :D Mr Yeo wears Giordano out, Bevan wears Adidas to sleep LOL. We used our lousy navigational skills to locate Bevan's house, and oh, I made everyone walk a longer way because I was too lazy to climb the overhead bridge -_-  It's pronounced as SONIA.  I'm amazed by his figurines collection.   I look horrible whatever. I can't camwhore.  Nice rainbow, and pinkey-orangey sky. I'll be right here waiting for you I can't leave you for too long, or else I'll forget what's it like to be with you Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around.
Internet connection is screwy.Laptop is laggy. PW is frustrating. I'm feeling restless. 14 hours of sleep last night apparently didn't help. I'm feeling more lethargic than ever. I just wanna lie in bed all day long and waste my time away. I'm dreading school. I'm surviving on your attention. I'm mentally crippled. Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes I'm being taken over by the fear. You never got around to know me well. My world's spinning in slow motion, and you're moving too fast. When will you slow down, to turn around, just to catch a glimpse of me? I'm still breathing, though we've been dead for a while.
Man, my laptop is lagging every few seconds. And I reckon it's due to the stupid Norton that was installed like 3 days ago.EDS Camp made my biological clock go crazy a little. Even though I had 8 hours of sleep last night, I was still pretty tired and slept in the morning after coming home from school (maths). There's still project later on (With bitches) and I wonder what time are we meeting. Gosh, someone please tell me soon. I don't know how to get to that place! :(  Vanessa C. & CK.  Maureen (Who thought I took an upskirt photo and chased me all around Black Box Room -_-)  Vanessa T., Siyin, Hwee Chian  Siyin, Vanessa T.  Vanessa C.  Siyin (Who looks awesomely tall for a moment)  Siyin, looking, err, glam? (This is one of the more glam photos right?)  Vanessa T. :D  Siyin, Wenting, CK, Vanessa T.  Siyin, Vanessa T. (Who touched some weird thingy by accident)  Siyin, Maureen and I (We all look extremely retarded -_-)  Siyin, looking unglam.  CK (Maureen took this ah)  He not only took up 3 chairs, a total of 5 chairs. One for body, 3 for legs, 1 for Ipod.  Finally a picture of Siyin and I. (I look like vampire) We didn't manage to get a full Comm picture. Am going to that random eating place with wifey :D (Hoho, haven't seen her for the longest time, well, 6 days to be exact) Maybe I was too pale Maybe I was too fat Maybe you had better Better luck in the sack No formal education I swore way too much But I swear you didn't care 'Cause we were in love Let's close this chapter.
EDS Camp is over.It was Fun. Exhausting (Both mentally and physically). I actually didn't lose my voice. I did crazy things. I got a guy doing a parody of me,"My neh neh very big leh!" (I don't actually use those exact words o_o but it was really funny of Chingying to do so) I slept for 4 hours. I bathed at 6 in the morning. I freezed my balls while bathing. The water was sharp and pokey. I felt like I was doing gymnastics while bathing (The water that was shooting out was like so low!?) I am now freaked out my the stupid old woman in the girl's body. I am vulgar when I'm asleep. I look like I outgrew Siyin's hoodie (OMGOSH I WANT HER HOODIE. SO CUTE :D) I slept with my legs dangling off the table. I might have pissed almost the whole of EDS off by making them do frogstar jumps. I almost cried when Sanpeng talked about the cutting cups thing because Siyin really worked super hard for this camp. I love the Committee. I crazily went for tuition after sleeping for less than 4 hours and walking around the school the whole day. I ate 2 Ikea Hotdog buns for dinner (Well not really, since I ate one at 6pm and the other at 9pm) I hope your guilty conscience knock your heart. It's all about fast cars and cussing each other.
Sometimes, I feel that I'm the source of all unhappiness. Is it that horrible to be around me?Seeing is not believing I can't say certain stuff now because it just isn't the right time. I don't wanna play this game of hide and seek. I need advice. Huiying, I thought what you said made sense (Well, uhm, if you get what I mean) but seriously, can anyone that dense think of something so profound? I really do hope that's the reason why. I try to use my smile and laughter, whatever not, to infect the people around me to make them happy but things just, don't go the way you want them to I guess. Maybe I'm seen as the bad guy, soon you'll realise things are not like that. I'm really tired from everything. I want something else to get me through this semi-charmed kind of life I need an answer. Maybe not now. Maybe one day, you'll hear me singing this to you, "I didn't cry the day you moved away, didn't think that I would feel this pain, until I saw the stranger that was you." But for now, I would only like to sing,"We exist, but we're taking it slow." Go EDS. Am excited about camp. I really hope it'll turn out fun. IT IS FUN LAH!!!! FORMULA ONE: EDS GRAND PRIX '09
WILL ROCK YOUR ASSES OFF! And today, you accidentally called me baby.
The conversation is getting boring You said you were going to bed soon So I snuck off to your bedroom And I thought I'd just wait there Until I heard you coming up the stairs And I pretended I was sleeping And I was hoping you would creep in with me You put your arm around my shoulder And it was good the room got colder And we moved closer in together And started talking about the weather You said tomorrow would be fun And we could watch a place in the sun I didn't know where this was going When you kissed me Are you mine? Are you mine? Cause I stay here all the time Watching telly, drinking wine Who'd have known? Who'd have known? When you flash up on my phone I no longer feel alone No longer feel alone I haven't left you for days now And I'm becoming amazed how You're quite affectionate in public In fact your friend said it made her feel sick And evern though it's moving forward There's just the right amount of awkward And today you accidentally called me baby Are you mine? Are you mine? Cause I stay here all the time Watching telly, drinking wine Who'd have known? Who'd have known? When you flash up on my phone I no longer feel alone Let's just stay Let's just stay I wanna lie in bed all day We'll be laughing all the way You told your friends they all know We exist but we're taking it slow Let's just see how it goes Let's just see how it goes Are you mine? Are you mine? Cause I stay here all the time Watching telly, drinking wine Who'd have known? Who'd have known? When you flash up on my phone I no longer feel alone No longer feel alone Let's just stay Let's just stay I wanna lie in bed all day We'll be laughing all the way You told your friends they all know We exist but we're taking it slow Let's just see how it goes Let's see how it goes I've got no more energy. I was totally lethargic today. I'm glad my wish for the firedrill came true. It would have been almost impossible to survive 2 hours of him, especially when I slept for only 5 hours. Well, it was worth it, since I managed to churn out the EDS Camp Booklet. I think my phone was feeling lethargic like me. The battery totally was dead today. Like there were 3 bars left and even though I didn't do anything, it went to only 1 bar left, after 3+ hours. What if our efforts all go down the drain? I hope for perfection. SYF costume makes me feel like a disco ball and dumpling all in one. I know I look terrible in it. RX kept laughing at me :( I'm such a joke. I was trying to see how fast I could take off the outer layer and I ended up hitting my hand against the podium. Then when I tried again, I flapped my arms so that it could come off. Then I went to Bevan and said,"Cannot leh. I flap my wings also cannot come out." I've got wings, yo. March Hols is like no hols at all. Mon-Wed EDS Camp. Tuition on Wed. HCL Project on Thurs. Physics Mini Assignment on Fri. Bevan's baby shower on Sat. Tuition on Sunday. Tell me I'm screwed. I'm not done with portfolio yet. AND OMG. I JUST REMEMBERED THAT I CAN SEND JOURNAL ENTRIES TO MISS YEE. BUT Y'KNOW WHAT, WHATEVER. I NEED MY SLEEP. THOUGHT IT'S 9.13PM NOW. 0745 at Macs tomorrow. What should I eat? Gosh, I'm going to be broke from eating fast food. Instant gratification. Are you mine? Are you mine? Who'd have known? Who'd have known? When you flash upon my phone, I no longer feel alone. Talking to you, makes me feel good. I'm not trying to say that I'm smelling of roses.
It's 1.34am. And it's a school day. Am waking up at 6.20am. Still have got LA Journal Entry (I seriously don't wanna do already) and EDS Camp Booklet. 3 days without internet can really kill and get me into deep shit. I didn't realised that Siyin sent the proposal and I only knew it like just now at 10+ at night when Maureen asked me about the booklet! And when I wanted to download the proposal, the internet screwed up and I couldn't connect. And I had this whole mental breakdown. I think I just got damn stressed out, and was literally pulling my hair. Hello, if you've got a camp next week, and you haven't done the booklet yet, you'd feel like a total effed up failure or something right? That's exactly how I felt. I totally came crashing down like mad, I felt super helpless, all I could do was sit there and stare at the screen and cry because I didn't know what to do. I kept repairing my internet, tried to connect through hardwire and wireless but everything failed and I couldn't take it. So I effing took off my specs and flung it at my laptop. I am deranged. And hungry. Well, had no time for proper dinner. It's 1.38. I have only 5+ hours of sleep. I wonder how I'll survive through tomorrow. I 爱若是你给的天灾， 我要被害。
I woke up at 5.30 to study. Amazing. I actually did that. I never did such a thing for school before. Time passed so fast though, and I was freezing. Maybe it's just really cold in the morning. I blush super easily. That's all I can say. And yea, Ju Eng Home looks more posh than what we (Well, basically Mr Yap, Leon, bitches excluding Deborah). That was only for the lobby though. Hahahaha. We had prata, and I realised that I giggle, laugh and crap too much. I kept giggling non-stop. Omgosh, I'm turning into Giggle-Fit. And Leon looks like a pervert to me ._. Why are his eyes so red man? Like why are Justin's eyes so yellow? I thought that I should let you know that my heart is damaged.
I am bimbotic. Ok maybe not. Who says liking pink is bimbotic? Now, my whole computer is pink pink pink :D :D :DMy computer skin is pink (HOHOHO), Window Live Messenger is pink, Mozilla FF is pink, Windows Media Player is pink. Anyway, here are pictures koped from Serena's blog :D       I like the first picture a lot :D So demure can. Next time my children (If any), will be like,"Wahhh, my mummy so demure. Didn't know she look like that some more...." There's still another demure picture!!!! Look awesomely retarded in the last picture. I was like shocked. HAHAHA, nevermind. Candid shots are cool, at times. Sorry Serena for spilling milo/oreo all over you -_- And we shrieked damn loudly. LOL. I'm such a klutz. And oh, I swear I love Lily Allen's album, 'It's Not Me, It's You'. The CD is in a super chio shade of pink. Damn chio. Told you I'm bimbotic.  Lily Allen is genius. |
