I'm not trying to say that I'm smelling of roses.

It's 1.34am. And it's a school day. Am waking up at 6.20am. Still have got LA Journal Entry (I seriously don't wanna do already) and EDS Camp Booklet.

3 days without internet can really kill and get me into deep shit.

I didn't realised that Siyin sent the proposal and I only knew it like just now at 10+ at night when Maureen asked me about the booklet! And when I wanted to download the proposal, the internet screwed up and I couldn't connect.

And I had this whole mental breakdown. I think I just got damn stressed out, and was literally pulling my hair. Hello, if you've got a camp next week, and you haven't done the booklet yet, you'd feel like a total effed up failure or something right?

That's exactly how I felt. I totally came crashing down like mad, I felt super helpless, all I could do was sit there and stare at the screen and cry because I didn't know what to do. I kept repairing my internet, tried to connect through hardwire and wireless but everything failed and I couldn't take it.

So I effing took off my specs and flung it at my laptop.

I am deranged.

And hungry.

Well, had no time for proper dinner.

It's 1.38. I have only 5+ hours of sleep. I wonder how I'll survive through tomorrow.

I secretly hope fire drill is during CME. I really can't take the fatigue anymore.