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Hello, I'm Huien. Member of It's F, Bitch, with the title of Lucky Cute Bitch. |
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Everything's cool as long as I'm getting thinner.
I wonder how I look like when my face is super pale. LOL.I'm still trying to figure out what was the main factor that caused me so many problems today. Could be due to lack of sleep or period. Or maybe I pushed myself a little too hard during the stupid run. I wonder how's my timing. Held on despite a horrible horrible stitch. Then the stupid puking feeling set in, and I started experiencing horrible cramps. They were so bad that I had difficulties walking. And my pain threshold is pretty high. So it was really quite bad. And great, I felt really dizzy, so I sat near the drain (that everyone was jumping across) and started looking down. BAM!!! I started puking everything out. Walking back to school from that pretty condo was really tough. Considering the fact that the cramps were really affecting me a lot and my vision was like blurred. Y'know you're walking and the world seems to be spinning. So I just sat on the ground, at the drop off area near the library. Then went to the toilet to sit on the toiletbowl and stone. Such a horrible feeling I swear. Everything coming at one go. Thanks Ruixin for accompanying me, and holding my right hand (even though my left hand had my vomit). I needed some time alone I guess, so I told RX to go find the rest. And after a while, I went to sit at the sink top, and just stone. Some junior came in and was quite shocked I guess. I (cold)sweated profusely that it hardly isn't normal. I guess it was pretty much a chain effect. Like I was losing so much blood that it probably resulted in the dizziness, and I was having such horrible cramps that it led to the vomiting? Possible? Why not? Ate a banana and amazingly, I wasn't like hungry till lunch. If anyone was hoping that I would die, too bad, none of that happened. I happily ate an ice-cream during lunch :D Well, I'm starting to feel that I shouldn't place my hopes too high, even though the hope seems quite high. It's true, they say,"The higher your hopes, the larger your disappointment." But I'm crossing fingers. Maybe I'll be disappointed, but at least it was appreciated and that's what really matters. You don't have to be first in order to gain recognition, sometimes a few nods from people is enough to make you feel like everything's worth it. I guess? It's not my fault, it's how I'm programmed to function. |
