Tell me how does that feel to see me waving goodbye?
Actually, I realised some things ain't gonna happen anymore. I really shouldn't be hoping for a miracle. The more I hope, the harder I fall. I'm sick of disappointments. Nobody said it should be sweet anyway. And you ain't going to realise what I want. But if it were to happen, it'd be the best damn thing that would ever happen. What are the chances anyway? No, I want it to be of your own choice, and not someone telling you to do so. I'm so sick of that. I shouldn't even have thought and placed hopes in the first place. Now I just wrecked my own fun.

It took two days
For me to figure out
This isn't working out
But I lost my way

I drove all night
Just to be with you
But you weren't worth the view
I gotta hit the brakes

Deep in your soul
Lies a lonely heart
That only ever pumps
For you alone

And I can't relate
So I gotta leave you here
I can breathe without you, dear
Just start walking away

Tell me how does that feel?
With a great canyon in between me and you?
Tell me how does that feel?
To see me waving goodbye?

Now you're history
I'm stranded
Get me out
I'm going home


Sometimes, you can't help feeling so useless, and unrecognised. I feel sad, that even though, no matter how much I try to fight for certain people, time and again, I failed. The same thing always happens, doesn't it? If my failure to do certain things have disappointed certain people, I'm sorry. But all I can say is I've tried my best.

And y'know what baby, I want the best for you too. Suddenly, all those great dreams I had for you are now gone, but you're still the perfect candidate in my heart. I hope you understand what everyone wants for you and I just want you to be happy. Knowing you, is such a joy, you're like the cutest thing ever, and I just want to see you smile everyday. I fear of seeing the disappointment in your face, and then I'll tell myself that I didn't try hard enough. But maybe, certain things are better this way, better for you in the future.

Darling, go for it :)! No matter what happens, I think you're the best person for it and you'll always be in that position, in my heart.

Love you. When the time is right, I'll tell you all that I wanted to have for you and whatever, I'm still going to carry out what I want to do!!! Ahhhh, don't wanna see your disappointment but I wanna see you smile, when I finally tell you everything that I wanna say and all the hopes I had for you :D

And then again, the bondness ain't there eh? It happens, so many times, in one community, then another. I never thought this would happen but I guess it did and I'm not the only one who realised it. I'm sick of doing so many things and pretending like I don't care. I've had enough, seriously. I'm sick and tired of all this shit. Hell, help anyone?

Anyway, I'm so done with Eclipse. Like finished it in 4-6 days (Can't really count 6 days because I wasn't really reading during the first 2 days of holding on to the book) Thanks Hanying for lending it to me! Now, I just need to psycho my mum into buying Breaking Dawn as birthday present. Seriously, I can't read off the computer, my eyeballs would probably pop out and get stuck on the screen.

Bitch.