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Have faith, restart.
I'm psychic, telepathic, whatever!!! I'm just cool. BAHAHAHA.I can totally be like (whoever this star is, inserts her name here ______________) and say that,"We're best friends and we complete each other's sentences." Sounds so Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie. Whatever. GEOG ONLINE RIVER THINGY IS ULTIMATE DUMBNESS. But you know what's dumber? Table Of Glory -_- (Is it trying to be like Shaolin Soccer or something???) Nevermind, whatever it is, I'm glad Ah Wu won. Jiajun is so irritating manzxzxzx. Dai Yang Tian seriously look better with his hair all gelled up. Looks so retro. Totally pwn all the other actor. And I know why he looks like Arron. TOTALLY. LOOK AT HIS HAIR. The fringe is totally Yan's fringe can. BYEEEEEEEEE. I'm happy that I made an improvement (very great indeed) from selling only 1 EDS Night ticket 2 years ago (Stop laughing at me, yes I know you are). That's why I started to hate you so much.
I thought I was going to be so happy, and I was, for like what, 5 minutes?Dude, conventions are meant to be broken. Bloody hell. Mood totally lost. So much so I don't exactly want to talk to you anymore even though it would mean to be very rude to not reply and leave a conversation hanging. But whatever, this time round I've got to be strong. 这是一个没有答案的问题，我感觉我变了，哦谁让我变了？ I've became a totally different person ever since I knew you. People seem to love you They gravitate towards you That's why I started to hate you so much And I just completely ignored you I don't know why I felt the need to keep it up for so long It's all my fault I'm sorry you did absolutely nothing wrong I don't know why I felt the need to drag it out for all these years All the pain The constant flow of all the tears Could you please find it deep within your heart, To try and go back, go back to the start? Don't talk about forever, let's just go back to the start, when we're all just friends. Normal friends. So here's to everything, coming down to nothing Here's to silence, that cuts me to the core Where is this going? Thought I knew you for a minute but I don't anymore Oh and it rains in your bedroom, everything's wrong It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone 'Cause I was there when you said forever and always You didn't meant it baby I don't think so Fuck, I want to cry but the tears can't seem to flow. You (another), told me to weigh the pros and cons, I did. You felt that the pros were better, now I seriously feel like maybe the cons are weighing me down so badly that I can hardly feel a thing anymore. It's not you, it's me. There's gotta be more to life Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me So, so what I'm still a rock star I got my rock moves And I don't need you And guess what? I'm having more fun And now that we're done I'm gonna show you Tonight I'm alright I'm just fine It will be over. Soon. Just 2 weeks. These memories will be erased. Whatever I'm still going to reply you. I'm not so bastard to end a conversation in the middle of nowhere. Off to play Bella' Lullaby. Maybe I would feel better. Virtually impossible. 不要害怕爱情的存在 不然等你真的错过了 再伤心后悔都来不及了 You don't seem to know, don't seem to care, what your heart is for.
I'm back home. Home sweet home I guess. For the past few days, my body clock has been getting on my nerves (I'm so not perceptive or whatever you call it, that makes you sound like you don't have time management).I keep waking up like one hour before my wake up time -_- Sigh. And I kept dozing off during Mr Kiw's lesson. So I kept pinching myself, ask Joy to pinch me, and whenever I dozed off, she'd pinch my cheek and stuff to keep me awake. HAHAHA. I enjoyed myself thoroughly, in a sense, talking about the past and present with Hanying is like really fun. We were like damn excited, when talking about primary school life, life in 5A/6A, canteen food in the past. It's just so amazing how these memories remain so vividly etched in our minds. Those times were unforgettable. I really miss everyone from 6A, I miss the old times. I miss the old canteen food! I WILL GO BACK TO PCPS THIS YEAR!!!! :D But DHS is where I met the people who changed my life a lot. They made me stronger, we forged strong bonds, so much so, I can't imagine my life without them. It's not about finding someone you can live with but rather finding someone you can't live without. My laptop is making stupid noises. Got to back up my stuff real soon :/ I don't want to lose all my precious music files T_T CAN MY LAPTOP JUST HANG ON FOR THE NEXT FEW MONTHSSSSSSSS??? (I want a new laptop D:) EDS NIGHT TICKETS FOR SALE!!!
23 May 2009, Saturday 7.30pm @ Performing Arts Centre Everything's cool as long as I'm getting thinner.
I wonder how I look like when my face is super pale. LOL.I'm still trying to figure out what was the main factor that caused me so many problems today. Could be due to lack of sleep or period. Or maybe I pushed myself a little too hard during the stupid run. I wonder how's my timing. Held on despite a horrible horrible stitch. Then the stupid puking feeling set in, and I started experiencing horrible cramps. They were so bad that I had difficulties walking. And my pain threshold is pretty high. So it was really quite bad. And great, I felt really dizzy, so I sat near the drain (that everyone was jumping across) and started looking down. BAM!!! I started puking everything out. Walking back to school from that pretty condo was really tough. Considering the fact that the cramps were really affecting me a lot and my vision was like blurred. Y'know you're walking and the world seems to be spinning. So I just sat on the ground, at the drop off area near the library. Then went to the toilet to sit on the toiletbowl and stone. Such a horrible feeling I swear. Everything coming at one go. Thanks Ruixin for accompanying me, and holding my right hand (even though my left hand had my vomit). I needed some time alone I guess, so I told RX to go find the rest. And after a while, I went to sit at the sink top, and just stone. Some junior came in and was quite shocked I guess. I (cold)sweated profusely that it hardly isn't normal. I guess it was pretty much a chain effect. Like I was losing so much blood that it probably resulted in the dizziness, and I was having such horrible cramps that it led to the vomiting? Possible? Why not? Ate a banana and amazingly, I wasn't like hungry till lunch. If anyone was hoping that I would die, too bad, none of that happened. I happily ate an ice-cream during lunch :D Well, I'm starting to feel that I shouldn't place my hopes too high, even though the hope seems quite high. It's true, they say,"The higher your hopes, the larger your disappointment." But I'm crossing fingers. Maybe I'll be disappointed, but at least it was appreciated and that's what really matters. You don't have to be first in order to gain recognition, sometimes a few nods from people is enough to make you feel like everything's worth it. I guess? It's not my fault, it's how I'm programmed to function. No, it's all for the better that we end this here.
My knee hurts, like crap :( Must have looked really horrible sprawling and banging my knee right onto the ground. I think I was like not concentrating at that point of time. Bam!!!!We heard one of the best news in our lives today. We shouldn't rejoice over another person's sadness (Whatever lah), but seriously, this is called, retribution, I say. Watch your words people, because I seriously believe in karma. Project, Celebration, Project, Test, Dance. Dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. (First batch of pictures uploaded onto FB, my internet is screwed) I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore.
I don't know what's right and what's real anymoreI don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore When d'you think it'd all become clear? 'Cause I'm being taken over by the fear We've got a silver. I'm neither sad nor happy, just lingering in the middle of nowhere. Pretty much devoid of feelings now. I can't cry, my tears can't flow. I'm usually this whole crybaby, because I totally cry the easiest, but I didn't. And I'm not going to. It's over, so there's no point brooding over it, so why not just move on? We've still got a show to go on. It's a joke, nobody knows They've got a ticket to the show. And just enjoy the show. Maybe I'll truly be upset when EDS Night is over. Because it just signals, end of JH CCA life, which pretty much defines who I really am right now. Pictures are currently being uploaded onto FB. I guess they're really pretty. Like really vibrant colours :D Could it be that maybe it's our first mistake But baby that's alright It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight There's a reason why they say that we should get in time But time is not enough And that's the reason why When you're young you fall in love I chose to believe you instead. I wonder what keeps me going? Take a deep breath as you walk through those doors.
'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love youYou're gonna believe them And when you're fifteen Feeling like there's nothing to figure out Well count to ten, take it in This is life before who you're gonna be Fifteen 'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you You're gonna believe them When you're fifteen and your first kiss Makes your head spin round but In your life you'll do things greater than dating the boy of the football team But I didn't know it at fifteen When all you wanted was to be wanted Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday But I realised some bigger dreams of mine 'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you You're gonna believe them And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall I've found that time can heal almost anything And you just might find who you're supposed to be I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen Gonna be busybusybumblebee. Project meeting, Packing of stuff, don't even know if I need to use laptop on Sunday if not it can go over to cousin's house on Saturday, buying lots of stuff LOTS OF UPCOMING BIRTHDAY BUT I'VE GOT NO MOOLAH AT ALL -_- And all the meetings are making me broke. I've spent $10 on Pastamania and ice-cream yesterday, $5 on KFC today. Tell me I'm a goner. BLUBBER ACCUMULATION. HELP! SAVE HUIEN THE WHALE! These wounds are self-inflicted.
Finally it's over.The past 6 months, we slogged our guts out, and the 6 minutes felt only like half a minute. Can you believe it!?! Hahaha no. The bazillion hours of training were all done for those minutes. But I enjoyed myself in the process, wasn't say stressed up or jittery :D And smiled really widely and naturally :D Apparently, according to Siyin, I inspired people, while dancing :D Woohoo, ain't that cool? Vivianne was supposed to pass to me the fan, but she didn't so I flustered and ran to find my fan, and reached where I was supposed to start walking out just in time (Thanks Siyin for directing!) but when I was out on the stage, I didn't think that much, and just walked and smiled. Didn't know that has influence on others. But it's a good feeling I guess. I feel like skipping school tomorrow. Very tired leh :( :( Will publish photos soon. Am gonna get chased vv soon. BFF, you are the weapon I choose. 多么配合你共我一对, 多么快乐你共我相聚。
多么配合你共我一对 Steps is really motivational. Sumei thinks I'm -.- because I kept crying while watching the show -_- Well, I found one thing really true and inspiring.
While we're putting in our utmost effort to get that gold we're aiming for, at the same time, that shouldn't be our only motivation. We should also enjoy the chance we have, dancing together, be it juniors or seniors, your first, last, or even one and only chance to dance on the UCC stage. Fate has brought us here, to dance these 6 minutes together, so why not take this chance, to do ourselves proud? After this 6 minutes, we won't be performing this dance as a competition piece again, together. We've come so far, we've been through long hours of training, be it technical stuff, the learning of moves, and even polishing every single minute detail, this dance has truly made me feel what's it like, to put in your best effort, utmost strength, and dance. This dance has made me realised what 台上一分钟，台上十年工 really means. It's the first dance that I've put in so much effort into. I skip SSS sessions just for dance, because dance is what I look forward when I come to school, it's the thing that defines me and I don't want to have any regrets when I go off the stage. Just enjoy the process, bask in the beautiful lights, and let the world see your beautiful smile. It's that meaningful and enjoyable to be on a stage. Time flies when you're having fun.
Daddy and Noel got older yesterday. Sigh, Mr Yap is so cute can. I message him saying,"Happy birthday. Older alrd..." And he's like,"Thanks. Ya lor. Sigh."I guess it was pretty fun yesterday. I got heels. Bahahaha. Yay :D $15.90. Seriously, it's quite worth it. HAHAHA. Daddy was like,"This kind of shoes, wear a few months, can throw away already. Every month a few dollars." Dinner yesterday was super satisfying, even though I really don't see why people actually bother to pay so much for foie gras. What's so nice about it o_o? Wagyu beef is damn nice though :D  Foie Gras  Wagyu Beef (Note the veggie beside the meat, it's like American brocolli and it tastes damn good :P Totally doesn't look like normal brocolli I know)  Fish Maw  Hair needs rebonding.   Complimentary test-tube juices. (Lemon, wheatgrass, coconut juice etc.)  Look damn ugly la. But look at the test tube, it's DAMN LONG. (Bro and I were saying it could be used as a hmmmm......)  Dessert (Damn nice :P)   凹 (Imagine tall me can form this word, what about someone else much shorter?)  Clinic bar.      Images from Bakerella 'Cause I believed you were the one.
Glad people actually like my camp booklet design. Will cross fingers.Good Friday is such a non-productive day man, I swear. Zzz. Window shopping with Deborah was more interesting -_- (OMG WE HAVE TO GET BOOTS, AND WE SHOULD TELL THE OTHER BITCHES OUR AMAZING PLAN! :D) I. Am. So. Gonna. Get. Heels!!!!!!! (SO HARD TO FIND CHIO ONES, THEN I SAW LIKE 2/3 CHIO ONES TODAY BUT STUPID ME WORE STUPID CONVERSE BOOTS AND MADE IT DIFFICULT FOR ME TO REMOVE AND PUT ON MY SHOES SO I WAS LAZY TO TRY THEM ON! WHY DO I ALWAYS WEAR THE WRONG FOOTWEAR EVERYTIME I SEE CHIO SHOES!?!?!?! Note: Always wear my flats, will never go wrong!) Deborah is, amazing. HAHAHA We were trying on sunglasses. And I embarrassed myself in public. Was happily waiting for my Ice-Blended Mocha when I crashed into this glass thing beside me -_- And I was talking halfway when I suddenly hiccuped. HAHAHAHA. Whatever -_- My daughter see me chu1 chou3 is ok. Iluma is so ugly, on the outside. Just like Vivo. Looking forward to tomorrow! To put makeup (Mascara/Eyeliner/Lipgloss) or not to? I don't want to throw my makeup away next year leh :( Expiring next year, so must quickly use :( Deborah and I bought cool handphone straps :D THEY ARE SO ADORABLE :D COOLIOS :D He's there in my heart.
No matter if you're fast no matter if you're slow, oh oh. The eye of the storm or the cry in the mourn, oh oh. You're fine for a while but you start to lose control. He's there in the dark, He's there in my heart, He waits in the wings, He's gotta play a part. Trouble is a friend, Yeah trouble is a friend of mine. Oh oh! Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh. And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh. He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh. So don't forget as you ease on down the road. He's there in the dark, He's there in my heart, He waits in the wings, He's gotta play a part. Trouble is a friend, Yeah trouble is a friend of mine. Oh oh! So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm. I won't let him win, but I'm a sucker for his charm. Trouble is a friend, Yeah trouble is a friend of mine. Oh oh! Oh how I hate the way he makes me feel. And how I try to make him leave, I try. Oh oh I try! But he's there in the dark, He's there in my heart, He waits in the wings, He's gotta play a part. Trouble is a friend, Yeah trouble is a friend of mine. Oh oh! So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm. I won't let him win, but I'm a sucker for his charm. Trouble is a friend, Yeah trouble is a friend of mine. Oh oh! Oh. Oh, oh. Done with my camp booklet design, although I know it'll never win anything. It was just a feel-good kind of design. I like it :) Can add to my portfolio :D Bye pups, am watching S-T-E-P-S, hopefully I'll suddenly get this inspiration thingy like everyone does in drama shows, then dance super well for SYF or something! Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around.
SSSSSSSSSSSSSinyee, go buy watermelon sweet! :DI'm pretty happy with what I've drawn for CME poster. Even though I think it's pretty irrelevant. But HAHA, who cares? Totally don't know what to draw for Camp Tee/Booklet. Like seriously, no theme draw what? Ok, actually I've got an idea. Zzz. But ARGHHHHHHH. Nevermind :D Everyone shall be happy. Please? Illusion never change into something real.
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified He showed me what it was to cry Well you couldn't be that man I adored You don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for But I don't know him anymore There's nothing where he used to lie My conversation has run dry That's what's going on, nothing's fine I'm torn I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn You're a little late, I'm already torn So I guess the fortune teller's right Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light To crawl beneath my veins and now I don't care, I have no luck, I don't miss it all that much There's just so many things that I can't touch, I'm torn I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn You're a little late, I'm already torn. torn. There's nothing where he used to lie My inspiration has run dry That's whats going on, nothing's right, I'm torn I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel I'm cold and I'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor You're a little late, I'm already torn So I guess the fortune teller's right. Some retard saw a picture of himself and said it was ugly. Pwned. Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Hah.Took the same bus, same lift home with neighbour. He alights at Baxter stop too, unlike Wenny's friend, who alights one stop earlier and walks a longer route home. I alighted with Maureen so as not to distress poor neighbour. But unlucky him ended up in the same lift as me, for the second time, after school. I think I traumatised him or something. Because of my oh so awesome laughter. Oh, and the possibility of him living directly 3 floors below me is like 50%. If some person knew, I'd see her camping at my void deck every single day. It's time to be tough. It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone.
My personality type portrait has changed. I used to be ESFP (The Performer) but according to today's test, I'm an INFP (The Idealist) and when I did the online test again which determined my very first result, I'm an ISFP (The Artist).Leon was like,"You introverted?" Yea, I'm quite surprised too. Possible career paths: (I chose those that I'd be interested in) Writers Social Workers/Counselors Teachers/Professors Psychologists Musicians As for ISFP, it'd be: Artist Musician/Composer Designer Social Worker/Counselor Teacher Psychologist Veterinarian Pediatrician Well, then again, these things will change over time. My stomach is feeling weird again. It's been more than a week :( |
